Mentality tired

This is the only place i feel safe to talk .

For the past few days my head has been all over the place. I cant even think straight . days back i told you about my relationship and that i would stay the night at my mums. That did not happen my bf came there at 12 at night long story short i had no choice but to go with him. Last night he started again we was fine until i got ready for bed . if i don't give him sex when he wants he starts and badly on me that sometimes i give in to stop him getting angry. Last night was that he got so angry he tried to push me off the bed he was through my cloths he was getting next to my face i was so scared i thought he would hurt me. Last night he was very angry Hes mood has changed he gets this angry look in hes eyes its scary. 2 days ago he told me something we were just talking about the future he said to me that we never get are kids back. He said if we broke up no other man would want me they would only use me he said i will never have a long last relationship as i cant have kids with anyone as the baby would get took. He said that he could get someone and have kids with if we broke up. but he don't want that he only wants me. He said he is the only one that can protect me from bad people he said no other man would protect me . i did fall for it i believe in him until i told my mum and she said he's manipulating me she opened my eyes to the truth on what he really is . he is not a good person he has done so much to me for so many years.

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Hey girl,

You are in an abusive relationship. What he says to you is not true. He’s manipulating you. You are so worthy and you have a lot to live for. Please go stay with your mom or somewhere safe and refuse to go with him. File a restraining order against him if you have to. You do have a choice. I know you feel stuck, but you are not. Please do this for yourself. This relationship is toxic and sounds unsafe and you need to get out of it so you can get your life together. I’m here if you need to talk 💗

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He is giving me very bad nights every night when i get in bed to go to sleep soon he gos on one he gets so angry I feel mentally tired out and he all ways has very loud music all the time even at night like now its coming on 12 i just feel so mentally tired out.

[pam4him]

Sweetheart, you are not in a safe relationship. With his actions, he's right, you won't get your kids back because they will not be safe if the two of you are together. He needs anger management classes to see if that will help him. Don't believe his lies about no one wanting you. Life brings about what we seek when it's time. If you want your kids back, stay with mom. If he's living with you and mom, he needs to go. Please consider contacting the National Domestic Violence Hotline (thehotline.org/). They can connect you with local resources to be safe and set a plan of action to get your kids back. Prayers for safety, wisdom and restoration with your kids.

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Thank you i live with him at he's mums and dads he's sister moved here over 6 months ago with her bf not so long after . lately every night at around 12 at night when i want to sleep he starts on me badly last night he put holes in a fuzzy drink and made it go on me he got my ps4 The most he said he did not mean to get my ps4 he said he was trying to get me with the hole drink. He's mum and dad were asleep but he was loud and there has been times he broke stuff. But no one came to stop him like if it happens in the afternoon no one comes to stop him I am on my own.

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

dearest glitterangel, you can't stay in that environment anymore. x

It's really his family against you. They close their ears to what's going on.

He will always be their son first, his sister's brother first. I worry for your

safety both physically and mentally as well.

I'm glad you are reaching out to us but we can't save you from yourself.

When does enough become enough?? Do you even know what it's like to

slide into bed at night, allowing your tired body and mind to just relax?

To take a deep breath and exhale the stress of the day? To close your eyes

knowing that you are safe from harm?

You've come so far and now you need to go a little further to assure yourself of

the happiness that both you and your children deserve. I care xx

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I am tired he makes me tired he knows what he's is doing to me but he don't know that i know the truth about what he's doing to me . I'm so sad i know i deserve way better than him. He scares me I am tired of fighting but i can't give up I am young i deserve a better life and one day i will get out of this place that iam in and he will see me strong and walking away to a better future until then got to keep fighting being strong even when he tryes to brake me but he can't brake me because I'm a fighter he can put me down but i will all ways get back up

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

Dearest glitterangel, keep that thought, that attitude. No one or nothing can

break you because you have an unbelievable strength inside that he can't reach.

Your body may feel the effects of the stress but your mind won't allow you to

crumble because you are an Amazing Woman....

When the time is right for you, you will get up and leave and never look back.

And guess who will be behind you? That's right, Me. I'll be holding your hand

as we did once before. You are not alone, you have the good people from this site

behind you and we won't let go.

Right now, the children are in a safe place. Next we have to get you there as well.

Sending my love, Agora1 xx

[Hearing1 in reply to Hidden]

I just got out of an abusive relationship it was hard. Once you do you can start working on yourself and learn to love you.

[Delzek]

WOW he is Toxic, you need to get out of the relationship quick ! he is mentaly abusing you, I dont know why you have had your kids taken from you? it could be because of him? and for him to tell you "No other man would want you" makes me think he is afraid of losing you! really you need to get out of the relationship break all ties with him surround yourself with Family, Notify Social Services that you are at your Mums and try and see if you can visit your kids more,and ask Social Services for help! From what a friend who is a social worker told me Social Services will do everything they can to help when someone asks for it,I dont know if its the same when Children are involved? I am sure that when the time is right the right man will sweep you off your feet! IF your hopefully soon to be ex ? treats Ladies like he has with you then it will be him that wont get another woman! Good Luck!

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Wish i could but I am stuck i have no money to live on if i leave or a place to go I am trying to find work but its been hard. My kids got took because of my mental health and him. i can get my kids back when i can prove my mental health is better and have my life sorted out. But my bf said even if i show the court everything i workd on they will not give my kids back he says no other man will want me they will only use me as i can't have kids and he is the only one that can protect me from bad people. He don't like it when i put my self or are kids first. He don't think pushing me or shoving is abusive he thinks only hiting is abusive he said he would rather push me lots of time than hit me . i know that he knows he's losing control over me that's why he treats me this way becouse i think about my kids and my self a lot more and he don't like that.