This season of anxiety has been the absolute worst struggle I've had with anxiety ever. And it scares me honestly. It's health anxiety but it has taken over so many things in my life. Even to how I think of things. I can't go to certain places I once were able to...I struggle going to nearby towns...I can't go too far from home at all. I was once a world traveler & now this? I can't keep a job because I can't drive by myself there or even stay home alone at that. I tried medicine again but it gave me such bad reactions that it actually worsened this condition. I'm under slot of stress & I think there have been many factors this year to contribute to this. The worst new symptom of all when I get emotionally bothered, my throat closes & gives the sensation of not being able to breathe & that terrifies me. Or I can cry at the drop of a hat & I've NEVER been like that before! I'm consumed daily with fears of health stuff & fears of going crazy--it doesn't help to hear some people close to you say you're crazy behind your back or to your face. I do have 2 friends who KNOW I'm not crazy & they start to encourage me, I start to get confidence back but my husband or someone will trigger the anxiety response by making me feel hopeless or discouraged & it's like it's automatic. I just want my life back! I'm realizing that there is no magic pill. I've been praying so much! I miss being able to just wake up, not have a negative thought, get in the car & go to the next city about 30 min away, not think anything to that & shop or work or anything. I miss my adventurous self when I wasn't too afraid to do so! I know there is hope for recovering from this negative mindset. It's does make it harder when you can tell people are talking. Having the issue is embarrassing enough lol. I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening to my rant you guys!