Over the last couple of months I have been dealing with alot of anxiety over the idea of being ill. It's gotten to the point where my hands have now got cracks in them and are extremely dry because of how often I wash my hands.
I have been dealing with alot of health issues over the last couple of months which has brought this fear of being ill to the point it has where I am constantly thinking trying to do things to stop me from getting more ill and if something goes wrong I freak out a bit.
For example a fly flew into my lip when I was outside so I could not cleanse my lip but made sure not to lick or touch them. By the time I had got home I had forgotten and was eating food and remembered. As soon as I did I went and washed my lip but now I keep thinking whether the fly was carrying a disease bacteria like strep or something or if that could affect me. I know it sounds silly.
It's coming from a deeper place as for a long time I had been dealing with personal issues that had gotten in the way of me being myself and experiencing things friends, moments and I somehow am worried that now that I am in a better space that something might get in the way of that. Thoughts like...hopefully being ill to the point of hospitalisation doesn't happen, or being ill and that altering health in an extremely negative way doesn't happen or dying doesn't happen- pop into mind. Plus the health issues I am going through worry me at times.
I write all of this because I am very worried about the fly on lip situation but at the same time I am questioning how bad my anxiety has gotten that I am questioning this.
Any bit of advice on both questions (fly on lip cause illness? anxiety over being ill advice) would be helpful. Thank you for reading this long post lol.