I'm desperate for help. I'm 22 years old, and I find it hard to move around or function normally each day.

[David193]

I made an appointment with my GP, but I've been made homeless and the surgery is very far away. I don't know how to get around, I have no money and I have no friends or close family. I have tried to tell people at the job centre (I'm trying to sign on) that I am having difficult reading and writing, that I cannot think properly and that I keep forgetting everything, but I need help now. I've begun to write myself death notes (notes stating how much I want to die). I don't have access to a telephone, and they keep giving me forms to fill in that I just cannot read properly. I'm having someone else write this for me on my behalf. My life story is complicated and I cannot remember what I've been doing for the last 6-7 years. No one is willing to help, just because I can move around, get dressed and shower etc. The only thing I can do after this is lie down in my bedroom and do nothing. I'm to scared to leave this place, I don't want to go to a foodbank (I'm hungry) and people just scare me in general - the people who live street lives, mainly. I don't want to become like them. I cannot even call 999 when I feel like taking my life - not that I would, I'm too much of a coward. My whole body hurts and I become totally incapable of having any sort of thought process within 10 minutes of getting up. I feel completely numb. I have no attention span - everything just swims in and out of focus.

Someone here is writing this for me on their laptop, I'm very grateful. What can I do? I really need help.

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Hi & Welcome

I have read your post & you have said someone is kindly writing this for you using their internet , I imagine this would be some kind of friend that is trying to support you or knowing what a mess you are in could they help support you maybe ?

I am slightly confused as you say you are homeless yet you go on to say the only thing you can do is lie down in your bedroom which sounds like you have some kind of accommodation to stay in

I think you need to get help & maybe the person who is writing this would be as kind to help you

I would suggest you walk into A&E at your local hospital & tell them how bad you feel & the thoughts you are having

I know you say you have no money & cant use a phone but if you can borrow someones phone I would call the Samaritans on

08457 90 90 90

I am not sure if you will be able to reply or keep us updated as you have no access to the internet but take care

Love

whywhy

xxx

[Photogeek]

Hi David.

I am so sorry that you are going through all this. Firstly you need to get to

The GP as that is the person who can help you and get you in touch with

A social worker. It's only natural that you feel bad in this situation

I want you to know that there is nothing wrong with having difficulty reading

And writing, I am glad you asked your friend to type this for you.

I live in a different country so I am not quite sure what supports you could get

There are sure to be some, so try not to get too stressed.

If you feel you can't get to the Doctor, you could go to A& E and that too could

Start you on the road to getting help. Where have you been living up to

Now?

I am sure others here will give you support. I will check back later.

Hannah

[borderline61]

Hi david. Just wanted to say that I read ur post and im sorry u r in such a bad situation in ur life. Accessing dr or a&e is really ur best option. ..even if u copy ur post on here and take that with u. I wish u a change of fortunes and im sending u hugs to give u a little strength . U have a right to be heard and treated fairly without discrimination. Keep safe. Xx

[Booster8joanna]

Hi David

I was very distressed to read your post but this forum is here for exactly people like you in your situation,maybe whoever has wrote this for you will give you regular access and help you on your journey,I think the best advice is to go to A and E as you could have an undiagnosed medical condition that you are unaware of,I'm sure they will get a mental health worker to assess you also and get you the help that you so desperately need,I have also had some bad times in my life where I've thought suicidal thoughts but I pulled through in the end and I know with the right help you will too,the very best of luck to you,please try and stay in touch with us on the forum as we are all very concerned about you and your situation,take care xxx

[Mysteryreader]

I don't know whether you are have had chance yet to access A@E but if not please try and get there soon. I am so sorry you are in this situation but I would hope they would be able to help.

hugs mR

[Sundayschild10 in reply to Mysteryreader]

I was so saddened to read your post but I really hope that you get the help that you obviously need. Do you have any Family around you? I don't know what it is like to be homeless without any money but I have certainly been round the block many times with depression and anxiety but I have a fabulous Husband who I knew for 10 days and we got married (it is our Wedding Anniversary today). I did marry 2 violent men before this marriage which has scarred me for life. I will be taking anti-depressants for depression and anxiety for life now. My life suddenly changed when I married this Husband but he has learnt to accept me for what I am with my ups and downs (not a pretty sight sometimes). I have just had my second year free of breast cancer (that is scary) and I take each day as it comes. Please look after yourself and as everyone has said do go to A & E and they should point you in the right direction as I was a trained Mental Health Nurse and know how they handle your illness,

[Yummimummi]

Hi David

Well done for taking the first step, you've opened up and told us how your feeling which is a good positive step forward

Right, I do think the advice given is good advice and worth following up.

Whywhy has given you the samaritains number, please call them, they are very helpful and understanding.

I've also found a couple of websites that might help;

mind.org.uk nice.uk

Please look after yourself and please know that you are not alone. There is always someone on here that will help and advise and listen

Big Caring Hugs xx