I'm not registered with my GP as I can't get there and I can't register over the phone. I have really bad anxiety and I find it incredibly difficult to call them in the first place. I also find it difficult to leave my house and the one time I managed to get to my GP they were closed for a totally random training day. I've tired emailling many people but no one can help and I don't know what to do.
My problems have slowely been getting worse for the past 3 years and I've now started having really bad panic attacks and I'm just so annoyed and frustrated at myself all the time. I try really hard to do normal things and I just physically can't and I don't know why. If I set out to do something, no matter how simple, I can't because I planned to do it and it's too much pressure. If I, I don't know, have bread that needs eating and I plan to have toast for breakfast to use it up I then can't do it. It's so stupid and so incredibly frustrating. I have a degree in the thing that I love doing and I'm so passionate about but I can't answer the phone if potential employers ring me, and I just can't go to interviews. I have absolutly no form of income and I can't even get government help as I'm too afraid to call them or go talk to someone. All relationships with friends are breaking down as I can't deal with talking to them, and I'm very aware that everything around me is getting so much worse everyday and I have the motivation to fix it but I don't have the ability to.
I'm really sorry if this is in the wrong place, I'm not sure how to use this website, but if anyone could direct me to someone who could help I would be very grateful.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.