Thanks whywhy and tom etc for your kind words again I've been so mad busy I should now except that I feel like this and that's what I'm doing right now on here I've been far to hard on my self my wife also took part in are tell call this has helped a lot and yes I've had a panic attack yesterday and my anxioty is high at the moment but it will pass also I'm going to change my name on here to the not so big guy notsobigguy as I need to celebrate the fact that I've lost 4 stone esh this year put on two productions in the drama school started a 3rd year and made a fab Xmas dinner despite feeling blaaaah
So positive is going to be my middle name from now on I'm sorry if I've done your heads in I still feel bad but I'm going to except it for now go down stairs and movie I'm also going to chill out gym yes walk yes but in a more relaxed way !!!!
Love you all loads your my strength Thankyou xx