Morning all, how are we all x
Oh what a night I had last night, after the epic fall out with the neighbour, the indigestion set in, max allowed number of rennie later and it still persisted. The awful type where its right up your back and the pain in immense. I did almost call a ambulance as I was crying in pain, but once the wind started to dispense I was fine x
Im going to have to go to the docs as my nana had gallstones and this sounds similar.
I woke myself up in the night with the pain, and then I got stressed and was upset and the panic started, adrenalin, sweating etc. I thought this is it me out again. But instead of fighting I closed my eyes and waited. And then woke this morning feeling tired. sluggish and crap.
I have sat and thought about what happened last night and I only seem to get these night panics when im stressed. I have agoraphobia and i have, this according to my therapist, chosen to retire from the outside world to stop myself being hurt, if I was,not seen people could not judge, They would not upset me or bring me down, there would be nothing I could not control, how wrong was I. It seems even in my safe zone, my home I am reduced to this, i am accused and i am talked about. So I may as well go forth and get myself back out there, if i am going to be talked about lets give them something to talk about x xx bring it on world xx