Morning all x Well today my anchor is down braced as its one of those days x
I had my cbt session yesterday but fail to see what is actually therapy about it, the woman talks and talks for the hour and stirs up stuff in my head and makes me think which is good I suppose in some ways x but then she goes and i'm left thinking help!! im drowning in the stuff she stirs x I have been shown no ways of coping with panic or stress and she certainly isn't helping with the ha x today in my head i've had numerous blips which could lead to worst case scenario x She isn't coming back for 2 weeks and Im expected to make a miraculous recovery to go on holiday for a week in only 15 days or stay home alone x Im not staying home alone so where do I go??
My hubby avoids me to some degree as he is helpless as to what to do for the best, so today i tried to talk to him, a few tears where present granted x I told him all i feared and what I felt my life direction was and his response shocked me x he got up and said i was basically blaming him and it was his fault I was like I am x I never said that I told him I wanted some company Im sick of being alone I have no friends and Im home alone most of the day x He goes to bed 4 hours before me and so even on a night im on my own x he got up and went out said he was going to get me some help as he was stuck x So again im on my own. grrrrr anger has taken over I just wish people would listen!!!!! Rant over Donver xx