Hi all, how are we?? Well as you may of guessed the ship is in port for the night and the captain is unhappy.
Ive had a good day, not taken to much notice of my anxiety and plodded on, had a good 2 hour chat with a good friend and felt much better for it x Have just felt really good and then I rounded the corner and hit a rock:/ I had deleted my annoying neighbour off fb but alas id forgotten her hub. So i get a mess asking why am i such a b*****, i ignored she then went on to rant for ages sending mess after mess, about me being a evil vile woman, there is no wonder im not liked, i deserve al the bad things that happen in my life, she is sick of me faking anxiety to get sympathy, im not a good mam cos i have anxiety and neglect my kids. etc etc etc i deleted the hub she then carried on, on my hubbys fb, i stalk her, she has told the benefits im cheating the system i should give credit to people like her who have anxiety and are not coping but im taking away her chance of therapy by pretending. She is glad i dont go to the school cos none of the parents like me, they think im scum, i could go on but think you have a good enough picture. This amuses me but then also makes me sad. I may be a fail in some areas of my life but that evil bleep has no right to put me down, my mistakes are made and they will not be repeated, i did not choose to have anxiety nor did i ask for the things i endured growing up, i bear the scars. If im nt liked then its there choice to judge me by my cover. dont judge my parenting skills and do not say i claim what i should not. I am me, i am what i am. I did reply to her, short and sweet. it merely said "its my facebook wall i will write what i want, if you dont like it dont read it that is your choice, just as its your choice to be all you accuse me of being."
I calmed down a bit by speaking to the hubby x but i am fuming it seems blocking her is not enough x i have had enough she is now fuelling my determination to get better x I pray karma exists x
I better batten down my hatches i may be sailing in shark infested waters as it seems if you don't bleed you will be cut x The only down side is getting so angry has flared up the pains and the ha x damn woman :/
xxx Donver xx