and it all starts again.....

Another crap morning while he makes me feel uncomfortable. I have chores to do while he acts like a child and plays on his games all day again. Felt hungry so I fancied some cereal, but he used all the milk, he didn't think id want breakfast, ok il just sit and die then yeah? moron.

Made some toast but could only eat one slice and now feel rubbish, was all like yeah good day going to go out morning get it done with and feel good no I feel shit and down now. Dog is barking which he will leave for me to sort and feed, I mean im only trying to visualise and sort my morning out.. very selfish man at times!

But sod him!

Im gonna motivate my bottom, get changed have a snack bit later, go for my little walk.. I am!! then make flapjack for my boy and prepare tea early, get bedrooms tidy and make them relaxing and maybe have time to do my online cbt and read my allen carr stop smoking book.. I will get my health back on track, no man will stop me.

I so wish my mum was here right now, she would always cheer me up I miss her too much but my partner doesn't relate he has forgotten its even happened and how upset it makes me, but I know she still supports me in my heart and is with me every step of the way, when im feeling down I can hear her nudging me saying come on girl your stronger then this!

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Morning Luv

YOure doing so well so don't be hard on yourself......... its hard enough dealing with a man apart from everything else....... but look you started off feeling crap but you've picked yourself up and motivated yourself to be positive......

Well done....... Im sure your mum will be with you every step of the way and would want you to be happy that's for sure....... Shes with you in your heart and no one can take that away.......

Sending hugs ....... keep strong luv xxx

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Keep going girl! What Dosent break you makes you stronger.......sounds rubbish but it's true. Enjoy the flapjacks with your boy , small things big pleasures xx

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Yeah I'll second that........ I wish I could go back to a time when my boy was little....... Oh how I would cherish that time instead of worrying about other stuff!! xxxx

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Thankyou im feeling more positive, I know doesn't time fly with them, only feels like yesterday he was my small baby, got to grab life while we can, no regrets just looking forward

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Enjoy your day hun..... and try not to worry......... You enjoy making that flapjack with your boy xx

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thankyou hun I will

Hope you have a nice day xxxx

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Hi

Just seen this

Doesnt your fella work hun ?

I dont mind them been at home if they help , but as you have said its like having another kid

He needs a kick up the bum

Hope you have managed to eat now & feel a little better

You are so right , your Mum will stay in your heart for ever & if you can sit & be quite , you will be able to hear what she would be saying & she would be saying , come on , I no you can do this & you can , slowly you will get there

Love

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