feeling angry. >.<

[4nxietiousSam]

i've realized before i was ill i took my life for granted i could go outside and have a social life go for drinks at parties i could go for walks and other things but i sat infront of the telle like a zombie and now i cannot do any of those things and i just get so angry, people out there don't go and live their lives because "they can't be arsed" and i just wanna shake them and yell wake the hell up there's a life out there to be lived, you ever knoee what could happen tomorrow... i just wish i could go back in time and tell myself that in the future i was going to get sick and not be able to leave the house. maybe then i woulda done what i can't now i woulda had some sort of closure on the life i had.

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Hi Sam, I know how u feel I want that life I once had back. I have health anxiety ( obsessed about heart disease in particular) it's really had an effect on me yo the point where I can't be alone. Although today I have been doing exposure therapy and walked the dog down a very short road and back but since I have been having chest pains which have gone on for 12 hours plus. I can't stop thinking I have a serious condition lurking. I too think people end to grasp life, I just wish I knew I would get this then maybe I could have prevented it xxx

[4nxietiousSam]

people are so unaware about this sort of stuff i just wish there were some sort of awareness to let teenagers knoee about anxiety and what we go through and all the different types of anxiety like youu said your is health anxiety and i have youu knoee the normal common one lol but they need to knoee that they need to live their lives before something like this changes their life forever and end up regretting things like us. xoxo

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I also have health anxiety/anxiety. Currently getting therapy for! But if I knew I was going to have this od of held back having kids I have 3 kids, and it makes me feel worse (not there fault I know) but they are a constant worry as they are getting older and I have a fear that I'm going to die because of how I feel sometimes. I wish I could shake it off. But hey there's hope out there keep trying ask for therapy. I've started exposure therapy with asda my biggest task, tried to go in yesterday and failed but hey there's always today to try again. I've found I am worse just before my period quite a lot worse :/ hope you both find a way to beat this or cope with it.

Jo x

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I am having CBT at the moment and my therapist is doing an article in the lancet regarding anxiety, she deals with health anxiety only, and the implications both for ourselves and health practicioners. She wants to make them more aware of the illness. Sometimes I think they see us just as a nuisance. I have had this for nearly 40 years and it not only ruins your life but relationships. It is a terrifying disease and it really annoys me when people say "snap out of it." Don't they realise if we could we would, we hate being like this it totally consumes our lives. If I broke my leg people would be sympathetic so why can't they treat our HA the same. I also think the Internet is making matters worse.

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Health anxiety is horrible. I don't just believe I have this now as last night I was sitting feeling relaxed watching tv with my boyfriend and I jumped up in a panic as I felt dizzy and paralysed felt as if I was passing out loosing control. I didn't though I was fine. I read a chapter in a book and I understand this to be panic disorder where u experience a symptom tha make u fear ur life u feel ur dying and loosing control. This is how I often feel and to make it worse I get the symptoms before anxiety and they are real this left me believing all the doctors and a top cardiologist where long. I can't understand if I feel relaxed and well why do I get the symptoms again and again and again. Iam totally hypervigaliant to any change in my body ie weird sensations in my throat and my neck or my chest and I totally tense up making it all worse. I truly hate anxiety and the fact it has gripped and slowly taking my life xxxx

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I think the worst thing is we never believe the doctors and everything we get is going to prove fatal

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Wow, very strong! I realize this post is 2 years old but I hope you're doing ok. I am not ill, but I share your feelings about others. I tell myself (and others) that we're currently living the life that we would wish for if we were ill. We're living the life that we would make so much promises for had we lost it. It's like saying"I wish I could go back" and our wish was granted, yet we go back and make the same mistakes.