Hey Everyone, sorry i haven't posted for a while i have been away camping for a week but so much has happened that i would love to share with you all. Firstly i got reply from the counselling service and i have my first appointment at the beginning of September, very much relieved that i have this appointment so that i can start sorting myself out and that i can control and maybe in time reduce my anxiety. This comes at a perfect time really for me where i am struggling to control my panics,.... last week was pretty stressful at times because i was responsible for a group of children for the week and i broke down by the monday and have a panic. My boyfriend mike was there at my side along with my dad to calm me down and to make sure i have everything i need. They said i should of told them if i was feeling like this and for the rest of the week i was absolutely fine and had a great time with the children.
But going back to the counselling i am more relieved that i have finally an appointment. I had a bad summer last year with life at home and my health took a bad turn also with my stress levels and getting a form of psoriasis aswell. However, i keep getting flashbacks from certain events over the summer still even no typing this to you all makes it painful for me ..... my family understand because they went through it with me and it seems they have moved on but i am struggling to move on from it and it makes me even more frustrated. I am doing well at uni, i have most amazing parents, brilliant friends and the most wonderful boyfriend i can possibly wish for yet i feel it is difficult to move on and i don't know why..... lets just hope the counselling helps me bring closure.... do you think it will ??
Also i have the doctors tomorrow, abit anxious about that if i am honest even though i dont have a reason to be..... i just want it to stop now