I am trying so so hard. But this anxiety is beating me up.
My pulse is so crazy one minute it's 112 the next it's 70 then it's 95. Wtf. You would think I have a arrthmia (however you spell it) but nope I call my doctor and explain my symptoms about my pulse and the nurse says"we've checked you out good it's your anxiety but if it doesn't ease up let us know"
Okay... if it doesn't "ease up" wtf why do y'all think I call you all the time. It HASNT "eased up". It's like I know I've had all these test and they say I'm fine but I just can't deal with this. I feel my heart beating so fast all the time.. im trying so hard to ignore it but I can't!!
I don't want to die and leave my kids & husband and then have them say "oh I guess it wasn't anxiety" 😰😰
I called my therapist and I'm gonna see him Monday... he's never helped.. but whatever at least I'll try again. I can't seem to find the root of all this. I have no problems at home etc. it's all the symptoms I'm getting that worrys me. Sorry for the long post. I'll shut up now. Rant over