I'd love some advice before I really do lose my boyfriend. My anxiety has been getting worse over the last few months as my job prospects have got more shakey. I'm scared that I won't have enough money coming in and am finding it hard to look for work. I cannot relax and stop thinking about it. I'm studying as well, which is suffering.
But the real problem causing me to write is I can't help taking it out on my boyfriend. Whenever we talk on the phone I end up tears. He is always trying to find the solution to my work problems or reassuring me that it will be ok. I have told him I just want someone to be there but the more he cannot solve my problems the harder he finds it and the more scared and anxious I get leading me to have panic attacks on the phone.
While we have had a solid relationship I know I can't take it for granted. He is really frazzled and stressed at the moment and I can feel him getting more and more fed up. I am so tempted to call him and show him how I can be ok but it doesn't work. And I'm still being selfish and not supporting him - he really needs it too.
Basically it's my anxiety that will end up killing it. I need to get a grip. I feel like I can't breath right now and I'm exhausted. Any advice at all would be much appreciated.