rock bottom again

[Littlesofty]

Hit rock bottom I went to bed last night and felt myself constantly shaking and had so many bad thoughts on how to go about commiting suicide I just feel like I cant fight this anymore its been going on for so long I just want to be happy is that so much to ask? don't worry I wont act on it as im too much of a coward. I'm finding uni difficult, along with my partner being made redundant I think its going to be the end of this month so then its like how am I suppose to pay the rent as I student I just don't get enough as im constantly broke which is a concern of mine as I don't want to lose the house and things as my partner has a 10 year old child and im step mum to be but tying to do uni, trying to parent when I don't really know what I doing and today her friends at school thought I was her sister is that good or bad I'm really not sure. help me please I just don't know what to do anymore.

[Yankee_Doodle]

Hi Littlesofty

It sounds like you are going through a difficult situation. You are doing the right thing in discussing how you are feeling as we know it is helpful to talk about problems. It’s important to know that help is available and that you can start to feel better and improve given the right support.

It is a good idea to talk through the way you are feeling with a friend or family member if you can. If you need to talk with someone immediately you can call the Samaritans.

It is also worth considering making an appointment with your GP. We find that talking through things with a counsellor or therapist can help you explore how you are feeling and help you make positive choices that will benefit you.

Included below are some numbers which you may find helpful including Anxiety UK’s helpline.

Take care

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Samaritans,

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Anxiety UK

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[Helpmebirmingham]

Hi Little.

I have been going through anxiety for years now. It has been the bane of my life to be honest. I know about hitting rock bottom. I had several nights a few weeks ago without any sleep day or night. I felt exactly the same as you. I even fell down the stairs as my legs were like jelly. I hurt my right and leg.

This is a terrible illness. We need to learn to live with it. Fighting it is not going to help you.

I know from experience. I done it for years x

[Littlesofty]

thanks help me what should I do then? how do I go about totally coming to terms that im never going to get better. im so sorry tht you fell down the stairs are you ok?

[russ5]

Hi Little

I think I'm in the same place as you

The best and most difficult piece of advice I've had was to stop fighting the whole nasty monster.

I wish I could say that I've been able to do this but definitely havent yet! but admitting there is a problem is the first step

There are loads of avenues to go down- just talking to someone over the phone with the Samaritans helped me through a bad morning

I think it helps to know that there are loads of people feeling similar to you and we will beat it. Maybe not today but it will get better

Lots of love

R

[Littlesofty in reply to russ5]

Well russ I am on setraline and having counselling it is helping a bit but the past few days I've got really down n my sessions are nearly over I had to take my partners daughter to school but since I got back I've climbed back into wen I really should be doing other things I just feel I can't face the world. I've been battling for past few years will it ever get better?

[russ5 in reply to Littlesofty]

We have to believe it will. Have to. Its like a wave, I know. Today I've been crying my eyes out on and off but its all about little steps I think. I've booked my first session for Monday. I confessed to my Mum about how I've been feeling. Little steps but they've made me feel more in control (even if I'm not!!!). I'm trying to ride out these lows and wait for some normalcy to return, but it will I'm sure. Ive just started to take citalopram this week and I'm really up and down with it. Keep on in there and hopefully the love in your life from partner, friends etc will help you on - don;t be afraid to talk to them - although I haven't spoken to my wife about how I feel -massive hypocrit aren't I??? - When I spoke to my Mum though, she did help even though I thought it wasn't going to. The world is a crappy place, all you can do is try and make your little part of it as loving as you can - massive hugs from me to try and help it on a bit x