It's been a while. Anxiety's back again!

[QueenieLynn]

Hi guys.

It's been a while since my last post and reading all your helpful stories. I have been quiet better these past few month managing my anxiety pretty well until today my anxiety is coming back again.

I started working at this company last march. I have no experience and this is my first full time job. It's going pretty good until what happened yesterday. I made a huge mistake. I felt terrible about it, even though i already talked about it with my manager, still I don't feel good.

I am so disappointed about myself. I am so stupid. I don't know what to do. I just want to disappear. My anxiety and panic attacks are back again. I don't want to work anymore. I don't have a face to face everyone. I am so ashamed of myself.

Hope all of you are doing well xx

[peanutbuttercup]

Are you kidding? It sounds like you handled it perfectly! Everyone makes mistakes. Everyone. It is how you handle them that makes the measure of you. It sounds like you owned up to the mistake, took responsibility and talked to your boss. That right there is the definition of a dream employee!

If that is the way you handle all mistakes, you are working on being a great human being.

[QueenieLynn in reply to peanutbuttercup]

Hi peanutbuttercup.

This is what happened. Someone called about making an appointment, she told me that he already talked to my manager about it, so as i was inexperienced and a bit careless about everything and quiet convinced that she already talked to my manager, i booked the meeting. After she sent me the calendar invitation emailed, that's when the realisation hits me that i should talk to my manager first about it before making a move. There is a misunderstanding and miscommunication about it, She adressed me as the manager. I talked to my manager about this huge mistake and apologies. At first he was quiet shocked but then he told me that he declined the invitation and it's all good, that next time i should be more careful. That some people called saying that they already talked to someone just to get some appointment about proposing their business. I couldn't reached her to cancel the appointment but then the next morning she called to remind me about the meeting and there i did cancelled the appointment, she told me if i want to reschedule, that's when I corrected my mistake and tell her that i am not the right person to talk about it, that she can talk to my manager.

I don't know if everythigs good. I don't have the face to to go to work. I am anxious to work this monday for the appointment is on monday. I am worried if she will show up. I don't know what to do anymore. My anxiety is eating me up. Should i resign?

Thank you so much for reading. Hope you can give me some insight. I am freaking out. Thank you so much for your time.

[peanutbuttercup in reply to QueenieLynn]

Oooh, the slick salesperson. That is always a good one. First, the lady you made the appointment for did everything on purpose. She knew exactly what she was doing. That is the way some solicitors get past the front door to make their sales pitch. They are very slick and use all sorts of tricks of the trade to get in the door.

I don’t think you owe her an apology. She kind of used you. All you have to do is remember the trick she used because I’m sure others will try in the future.

It is actually kind of fun to be he gatekeeper like you are because you’ll get to see all sorts of thing like this to get past you. Have fun with it.

[peanutbuttercup]

Now all you need to do is realize your strength and move on. 🙂

[QueenieLynn in reply to peanutbuttercup]

Thank you so much. You made me feel better now.

[Jeff1943 in reply to QueenieLynn]

Queenie, this is a huge over reaction on your part. Your mistake didn't cost your company money, it was just a misunderstanding caused by residual anxiety exaggerating everything in your mind. You're human, sooner or later you make mistakes. You can't resign from every job you make a mistake in or you'll have worked for over a hundred different companies by the time you retire. Just carry on, it will all be forgotten in a day or so.

[Indigojoe in reply to Jeff1943]

It is called EARTH SCHOOL. WE all have to go through it. We learn and we evolve.