Hi All, this is my first time on here and feeling like i can't really talk to anyone else as i feel i have exhausted all friend/family etc. I have been suffering with depression/anxiety and panic attacks now for around 2 -3 years being prescribed citalopram about 18 months ago. I have had CBT but at the time of the course i was at the height of my panic attacks therefore struggled to calm my self down long enough to work through what i had been given. I have since had a course of counselling that worked wonders finishing about 4-5 months ago at that time i was the most positive i had been i felt in years. I came away with that with some booklets to work through that covered anxiety, low self esteem, confidence, assertivness and dealing with stress. i have good days touch wood mostly but the bad days do seem to creep back in. I'll be honest i have picked up the booklets now and again but have never really practiced what they preach for too long as when i'm feeling good they tend to fall by the wayside and then when i'm having bads days i feel overwhelmed with what to takle first!! Does anyone else feel like they can't think straight at times, i'm starting to think that these bad days are due to stress and that i bottle things up and then it usually erupts in tears. Any ideas where i can go forward now??