Hey guys been really struggling today was feeling ok this morning, but as the day as gone on I've felt worse. Been trying to entertain my niece don't think I've done a good job my head and heart just isn't in it. She gone to stay at a friends now so I'm in my own for a bit with just my thoughts for company.
Really did think I had turned a bit of a corner this week, but the last few days I've taken massive steps back. Think it's since I heard from my ex on Tuesday. I've been trying to laugh and joke and be silly especially on here and it's helped a little, but it's only been a few minutes of laughter then I'm back to over thinking and analysing everything. I just feel so alone.
I really do appropriate the people on here who have helped me be silly and made me laugh. I was hoping I could put up a positive blog this week, but that's obviously not the case.
As much as blogging on here helps me. I also feel like I'm just repeating the same things over and over again. I know I've said this before, but it's just how I feel. I should be grateful I've got my health and a good group of friends and family around me, but I just can't seem to pull myself out of this slump and its so frustrating.
Hope everyone is having a better day than me. Just hope I can motivate myself to go out tomorrow.