Hi! I'm currently in my first year of university living in halls, and in all honesty, it's been the hardest few months of my life. The constant socializing is extremely overwhelming as an introvert. But what I've found most difficult is living in halls. Even if I'm just sat in my room, I feel so anxious and sick to my stomach so I can't concentrate on my work. I feel like I'm constantly listening out for what other people in the flat are doing (I've had my ear to the door many times to listen for people), and if I hear them socializing in the kitchen I get a sudden overwhelming rush of anxiety. Whenever I'm in the kitchen, I can't relax either as I'm constantly on edge that someone will try and initiate a flat night out. It's so draining to not feel relaxed or comfortable in the place I'm living.
I'm also not a big drinker or clubber as even the thought of these types of social situations makes me feel so anxious and always has done (sick to my stomach, sweating, dry mouth, hot flush, anxious thoughts so I immediately try and think of ways to say no to going out). I've pushed myself and gone out clubbing a couple of times, but I've found it's really not my thing as the anxiety during the build-up to the social event is just not worth it. Even though I don't drink much and still get 6-8 hours of sleep, the next day I can't stop crying because of how anxious I feel.
I'm worried that not enjoying the 'student life' of clubbing and drinking will cause me to lose my friends. They go out clubbing with other people and always seem to enjoy other peoples company more than mine (laugh and talk more) so I'm worried they'll eventually forget about me for not going out a lot and being 'boring'.
Has anyone else had a similar experience or any advice? I'm considering going to the uni counselling service but I'm really nervous to do so.