Monday is here and my mood has been ok for the most part today. My stomach and chest still feels like they've been tied in knots and after last nights crap sleep I'm really tired which doesn't help things.
Still feeling a bit down on myself this whole thing hasn't done wonders for my confidence which has never been great. It just feels like whenever I find something in my life that makes me happy something happens to ruin it. I'm trying to think and be positive, but it's hard when nothing seems to be going right for me at the mo.
I know there are a lot worse things in life than what's caused me to feel this way, but this is consuming me right now and I can't seem to get past it. If anything in the last few days it gotten worse.
Think it seems to be the topic today as others seen to be feeling the sane way, but I'm starting to get on my own nerves now. I just can't snap out of it. I try to occupy my self with things I used to enjoy, but it doesn't help and I'm left feeling lost.
I don't know anymore if I honest. Just glad I found this site as it a good place to come and vent and the people on here are so supportive. Just hope I'm not annoying anyone as much as I'm annoying myself.
30 tomorrow
Hope everyone is having a better Monday.
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Hi Will
As you say, I think we all feel like that at the min...... I feel like Im repeating the same crap....
Its hard and I still think youre doing great , even though it dont feel like that to you.....
Just try take it day by day, its all youy can do at the min...
luv Ker xx
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Yeah that's what I'm trying to do.
You doing ok today?
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not really but trying to be positive.... ive got too much time on my hands at the min, thats my prob.... but not in a fit state to get full time work....
trying really hard to motivate myself to create a hat,,,, but its not working
Ex text last night and said, I hope we both can be happy..... so i was childish and said, you just got in from dating?? stupid I know but I feel so hurt...... I said I really dont like you right now, so I think its best you dont text.....
Its crap Will but unfortunately, we've go thorugh these stages!!
xx
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Same as me then.
Yeah I can imagen that's hard that your stick between the proverbial rock and a hard place. Just give yourself some time I'm sure the motivation will come.
Sorry to hear that. Think it's best that you both just give each other space. I know that's rich coming from me, but that's why I'm doing my upmost not to text mine and I'm sort of glad she isn't texting me.
Yeah it proper sucks.
Hope you mood improves
Hi Will
Keep smiling & say Hi
Happy Birthday for tomorrow
I wont ask you what you are hoping for
xxx
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Couldn't really manage it today was either on site or driving to a job and I work with blokes think they might of got a bit worried if I did it to them.
Yeah think we know what I'd like the wally that I am.
It the euro millions draw tomorrow. So that would be nice too lol
Take care, Will - hope you have more luck with the Euro millions than I ever have! I have so little luck with lottery, I'm half afraid to check my tickets in case it says I owe Camelot £5m LOL!
O no , not blokes , that's not a good idea , unless you fancy a change
If you win tomorrow , are you sharing ? I will even smile at you if you did
No you are not a wally
My day has been the normal well what ever normal is
xxxx
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Nah I like my women to much
Yeah I'm sure I could throw a few quid around. Maybe I could take you lot out on the town lol. Yay a smile
Well maybe a little bit of a wally
Have you enjoyed your normal day?
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OK got that you like women
You could take us round town , one slight problem with me though is I don't leave the house & no you cant come here , I don't let people in ...so you are going to have to think again my little willy
Yes I have enjoyed my normal day , thank you
xxx
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We could go to a pub with wifi and set up a Skype chat with you so it would be like you was there. How does that sound?
Oi less of the little hahahahahahahahaha
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little Willie , brill idea , that sounds perfect
xxx
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See I've thought of everything. You could be in the pub with us while at home ironing hehe
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Sounding even better now
You are so thoughtful little willie
xxxxx
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That's me thoughtful willie. That's what my ex said to as she broke up with me hahaha
What's whywhy up to this evening.
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lol you are always asking me what I am up to
Just had a migraine , flashing lights , like been at a disco or what I remember of them
Now the headache , which can last 3 days
So not that good , little thoughtful will
I have noticed you are getting a little harem of women on here now
xxxx
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Just like making conversation and also like to know your doing ok.
Sorry to hear that sending you get well thoughts and of course a get well hug (((((((((((get well hug))))))))))
That's me thoughtful to a fault some might say.
Yeah never had this much luck with the ladies hahaha.
I'm in bed now with a bit of game of thrones. Lets see if some sex and violence will lighten the mood lol
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Thank you for the hug
Stop pulling yourself down , you just have been picking the wrong ones , it will change
Not sure if sex & violence would do it for me but if it helps you well ...
xxxx
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Your welcome
Yeah looks that way sadly thought I'd found the right one.
Didn't really help. So watching arrow instead.
Gonna say night. Hope your headache doesn't linger.
Happy Birthday tomoz
On my 30th, I was driving to work it was a sunny day, and suddenly I burst into tears lol, I felt like your feeling , I had lost what I thought was my soul mate girlfriend, was run down, disillusioned with my job, the whole world, I gave up.
Took me 6 years to get over her, funny I saw her the other day for the first time in 23 years. God, what did I see in her, she had none of the traits I so love in my now wife.
She was a user, she didn't love me.
Whenever we get anxious, whatever, we sit............... look DEEPLY into it, see it without all the preconcieved ideas our minds add to reality, the needing, the wanting, see it for what it is, its a beautiful thing, and will save you 23 yrs of suffering too.
There's someone special out there for you, open your heart, lessen your needs, wants, and take the first step, it really is wonderfull, all of it, see it with a new born babies eyes, its all ok.
Crank the volume up................ and Hit the link, hope its your type of music
If you lived where I do, believe me you'd see worse lol, cottage industry Anne, u go get the bags lol and I'll paint them, tucked safely away in my nest
Nope I got a hat with goofy ears I look well cool in it.
I will try will be workin so that helps keep my brain busy for a few hours apparently mum and niece have arranged a surprise for me so got that to look forward to
Crunchy of course., washed down with apple soda stream.
Ohhhh a surprise, that's something for you to look forward to. Lucky you x
In trouble for the duvet, nah, I'll change it and Hoover quick before she comes home, make it look like I've done something today instead of laying in bed watching documenrty on you tube lol xxx
How cool would that be, getting away without leaving the house. Ive seen the one with arnie, not the new one. There are certain remakes I won't watch out of principle. That being I'm old and stuck in my ways lol xxx
i can relate to your feelings and to the the sadness in your blog.. have you read 'peace for your nerves 'by dr Claire weeks ' it may help.. brilliant tool to use on your road to recovery. I used to really love listening to music.. now i look at my cd player with resentment ..(as if it's the cd players fault hahah). I hope you feel better soon..
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LOL! 
Annoying breath thing
I look in the Mirror & Don't see Myself Anymore.. 
I need to relax and start enjoying myself, how exactly?!!
Introducing myself and what started everything 
