alone

[Yehaw]

sometimes I just wanna scream, be heard by any human being on the planet but to say I feel alone feels so wrong . I live with multiple people i interact with often. I have old coworkers I interact with often, I have people who I text daily, people who I text often. Yet I feel alone my words never actually heard, mental health issues, depression, years of being isolated or whatever the hell you want to call it. The fact the most I know how to do is write scream to the only void I know that can respond: this website. I know why I feel alone, I understand completely I lack deep meaningful conversations, I lack deep meaningful friendships, I am the last picked. The touch of another person, of another being an infrequent exchange. Woe is me woe is me the words repeated to myself. I just want to scream I want to explode an anger allow myself to feel a human capability to express the lack of who i am. Who I want to be, who I fault to. Idk. Thanks for whoever reads this.

[gajh]

I am glad you are here posting. I hope that helps you some.

[Yehaw in reply to gajh]

It’s all good it helped a bit.

[gajh]

That didn't come out right. I hope that posting here helps you some, not that I said that.

[Lavenderblueee]

Crazy how I relate so much to this lol Currently battling with loneliness and isolation, I've battling with loneliness and isolation since I was a child, I experienced neglect, the one meaningful friendship I happened to have, left me without an explanation or anything, now it's been over a year and I've really been lonely

It's hard but we'll get through it

And I just want to use this tough times to love myself and be there for myself.

Cause all I ever had is myself.

[Yehaw in reply to Lavenderblueee]

I did read this, don’t have the mental energy atm for a proper response.