I'm done

[No_Longer_Human]

After my drunk mom got me panicking all night, someone important to me rejected me. Im dead since 4 years, God stop taking shots at me please

[Hidden]

Hi nolongerhuman. I cannot imagine what you are going through in your young life and do not live in your country. I can see from your messages, how difficult you are finding it all.

Just a question, no pressure to answer it, do you have any interests or passions that you enjoy? Things that may help you escape from your external world, if only for a moment?

[No_Longer_Human in reply to Hidden]

I like psychology but getting a job in this field is really hard. I like gaming and reading and music but more talented people than me make no living from it. Also freelance is not big in my country

[Hidden in reply to No_Longer_Human]

The subject of psychology can include so many careers and you have excellent english also. Is voluntary work a possiblity in your country?

I am currently unable to work because of my anxieties and I see you pushing yourself so hard to get a job, do you need smaller steps towards employment?

I am looking at some voluntary work when I am ready. My passion is with animals, so i am exploring volunteering options.

And just thinking about having some peaceful time, do you have something like a little book shop or library to hang out in? If you feel able to leave your home, of course.

[No_Longer_Human in reply to Hidden]

I can't work because of my anxiety and depression. I need the money as bad this might sound

[DJB74]

The name you use alone resonates with me: Nope longer human, I'm right there with you

[No_Longer_Human in reply to DJB74]

It's a reference to Osamu Dazai's book but yes. I can't work, i can't date, i can't eat, i can't go outside, i have zero dignity in front of my family and society...no longer human

[DJB74 in reply to No_Longer_Human]

You are human, very human in fact. That's why you FEEL everything. There is a heart and feelings there they have just been turned into iron and steel. The weight of the world has reshaped you. It's there , I promise

[No_Longer_Human in reply to DJB74]

It's there and it's making it so hard. Especially when others have stopped being human

[DJB74 in reply to No_Longer_Human]

I feel that to the core. But there is a minority that are human. They need us, the ones who know pain and desire noone to feel that way. We can can connect with them from our experience.. You are human and you do have a purpose.

[No_Longer_Human in reply to DJB74]

But the inhuman ones rule. Not only in my country which is wild

[DJB74 in reply to No_Longer_Human]

I live in America so.... You can't even go to a gas station without being hated on. So I decided to start a non Religious support group in my conservative lil town. You should see all the hate I have received even personal attacks. But I'm not letting hate hold me back anymore. Love is what the world needs and it's the one thing I have to offer. I would like to share a short illustration that I love and use inwardly a lot.So there was a little boy walking on the seashore after a tide washed thousands of starfish . He was picking them up and tossing them back into the ocean. A scoffed walks by laughing, boy what are you doing? I'm saving starfish. The scoffed laughs and says what can you do? You can't make a difference. The boy shrugs it off, picks up a starfish and tosses it into the ocean and smiles,I made a difference to that one!

One at a time my friend

[Nothing_but_books]

God isn't taking pot shots at you. Organized religion taught you to think that way. The universe doesn't notice or care about those blows you're taking.

You care about them. When you reach out here, we get an opportunity to care too.

You're embittering yourself, blaming God or mortals for your woes. Get up off your butt and realize you're the one to change the present.

Reach out and ask for help if you need it, but keep going.