Medications

[Mindloss]

For 21 years I have been depressed and medicated. It started when my aunt passed away. I swear it was grief. So I went to Hospice for grief counseling. I had my last child a few months before my aunt passed. Hospice said I was going through postpartum depression and that I should go see my doctor. My doctor put me on Prozac. It was a 20 mg. per day. I came back a few months later and he put me on 40 mg then another few month. He put me on 60mg. When I got up to 80 mg and that didn't seem to help, he gave me a recommendation for a psychiatrist. That is how it all began. Now 21 years later and several medications for depression and anxiety. Several visits to the psych ward and several psychiatrists, have made me lost and confused. I am at my end. No medication works for me. I swear I have been on every medication that is out there. I don't know what to do. I am scared of what the future holds for me. Suffering like this is unbearable. I have been like this half of my life. Is there a different approach to this? Is anything and everything going to get better?

[optimismrus]

It sounds like you know that drugs are not the answer. The answer is within you but finding it requires work. I'd suggest that if you don't already have a philosophy or religion you believe in, that is a good place to start. Best wishes for your continued recovery. 🥰

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

Getting treated can take some years to be properly diagnosed. It took my sister 3 years before she was properly diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

That's because so many things overlap like ADD, ADHD, Bipolar, OCD etc.

Really antidepressants and there's a lot of them. Are meant to like help take the edge off but also to help you loosen up to talk to a counselor about whatever you have bottled up inside you.

Sometimes we may think this is where it started but it could be something else entirely. Sure, maybe your aunt's passing might have lit the fuse. But that stick of dynamite was there. So now we have to figure out what has created that stick to begin with. And it's also trial and error with psychiatrist and counselors. You have to look through a few to find people that really fit you. It's perfectly okay to fire counselors and psychiatrists. If they don't vibe with you, they don't vibe. Move on to someone else.

There is also a lot of different treatments like EMDR or TMS therapy. So that's something to look into.

Anyways sending love and healing 🫂 ❤️

[Mindloss in reply to CL3V3R-G1RL]

I had TMS last year around this time. It did help. I don't have the $ for it right now to do it again. I also had ketamine treatments too. They don't work for me anymore.

[CL3V3R-G1RL in reply to Mindloss]

That's a damn shame about TMS. Because that seemed to be the treatment for you. Insurance may cover it if you meet certain requirements. But they are a pain in the butt. If you don't have no insurance it's hella expensive. I'm sorry you are going through this.

Sending love and healing 🫂💖

[Hachipoppy55]

Maybe you could join a grief or depression group in your area? Did you try therapy and that didn’t help either? It really has to be the right person for you