So I am changing medications, once again. I was on Viibryd but experienced severe teeth clenching. Going on Wellbutrin. I know that Wellbutrin is a stimulating medication and expect that my anxiety, which normally is manageable, will become a problem. My depression has already deepened while I have been cutting back on the Viibryd: trouble sleeping, crying jags, and hyper sensitivity. I think I tried Wellbutrun years ago and had a bad experience, but I can't remember for sure. Why don't I write these things down?
I am dreading the next two months of suffering side effects and worsening depression and anxiety. And it may turn out to be all for nothing. I may not be able to tolerate Wellbutrin and will have to go back to Viibryd and just put up with the clenching and damage to my teeth. I have to be on an antidepressant. The only thing else to try is Abilify but I am terrified of long term use of an antipsychotic.
Today some friends took me out for my birthday. They asked me what my wish was for the coming year. I said "a stable mood."
Let's hope.