Hope to mingle

[DontJudge]

For a while now, I've been trying to see if It's possible to change a few bad habits I've acquired while growing. I want to be able to live and jolly and be around people and interact with new people on a daily basis but whenever I'm in an almost perfect situation to engage in these things, It seems like my brain notices and switches to automatic and realise I'm in such situation and I'm just unable to think and just engage with such person. I'm trying to be more outgoing and be the way I should be and not someone who always scared to nuts while in social situation.I hope to have some kinds accountability partner cause I think it'll help but my small circle of friends is one to judge and so I don't think I can tell them. I hope to find support from y'all 🫶🫶

[stiff19]

wish I had some answers for you. I dont know if ive been in long depression or not but coming out the other side of whatever I am not depressed of sound mind and its left me open to confusion. I feel like ive lived in a bubble for years but its popped and I see clearly of a confusing situation. I believe I am victim of narc marriage and the damage is huge ive lost all dear to me and more and thats left no help available given current times. I understand we have to dig deep and not allow ourselves to fall and it's an all consuming battle but it's baby steps and not being hard on ourselves. I have the fight in me to stay strong but have blipped along the way , I was blaming myself. and hate to be called a victim but there's no other way to put it despite my mistakes which would never have happened im sure if not in the situation. I feel like everyone judges but be your authentic self is all you can do I wish you strength and peace and recovery to full.

[DontJudge in reply to stiff19]

Thanks stiff19

[secrets22]

its difficult and i understand you completely, to burst out of a bubble is extremely difficult, and its one i am struggling with right now, i honestly don't know which way to move, or if i can move, i feel stuck in a trap. I have no answer to your question but i pray you can move forward, albeit slowly.🥰

[stiff19 in reply to secrets22]

how I feel too but I have been isolated from all feel like anyone close can no longer be trusted and to trust strangers is difficult too. I feel like an idiot for allowing this to happen to me and yes we just have to try and try its all we can do.i feel stuck in a trap but only way to get out of is starting to move 🤷‍♀️

[secrets22 in reply to stiff19]

You are not an idiot, it comes with not being able to trust anyone, and the ones you thought were friends will stab you in the back given the chance, and i know this from experience.

[stiff19 in reply to secrets22]

I can accept friends but own family and son especially when we were so very close just breaks my heart. its ok knowing your own truth but when others dont or wont accept its soul destroying. there are some true evils in the world and I wouldn't treat a worst enemy in the way ive been treated , worst my daughter im beyond mortified but there is hope after depression and thank god thats allowed me to see my way out if it was that or ptsd or fight and flight in overdrive for so long today I can at least breath amongst the chaos of confusion and that is a little hope and I need that and all here too 🙏

[_FieldOfDreams_]

I totally get where you're coming from. It can be super difficult to get back into social circles when you've been out of them for a long time. The best advice I can give is to just try and try and never give up. I think just stating your desires like you have here will help you to improve. I hope things go well for you, have a nice day.

[DontJudge in reply to _FieldOfDreams_]

I'll give it all it takes💪. Thanks _FieldOfDreams_