Supermom is officially breaking down

[MCSegura]

So I'm new to the group thing but I'm hoping to be able to relate to someone I'm 27 and mom to 6 spunky kiddos yes I know first thing people are going to think is oh no wonder why she has anxiety but to be honest my kiddos do add to it but I've also quit drinking and I have a full time job plus being married and well I've had quite a life let's just say I could write a book and it would definitely be a must read, I guess I'm just trying to make sense of it all, I hate living in constant fear of my next anxiety attack and worrying if I'm going to be able to deal with it, it's such an inconvenience i have too much to do, can I just go back to normal!

[Lostjoy]

Hello, what are the ages of your kids? I hope this site helps you, and I wish what you said at the end of your post was possible. My kids are raised, and I am just now experiencing depression and anxiety. I wish I could just go back to the normal me. I have had quite a life also, with lots of struggles. My Mom is schizophrenic, so my childhood was horrible which I have always insisted wasn't going to affect me. The only thing I can think of is that I've been strong for to long, and never dealt with anything. I always just buried it deeper.

Feel free to write about your life if you want to get things out. At this point in my life I believe it's better to get it out rather than holding it in.

[MCSegura in reply to Lostjoy]

My oldest is 13 then we have my 12 yo, 6, two 4 yo and a 3 yo, we have 3 boys and 3 girls, I lost dad at 16 my husband was away for almost 7 years got into another relationship that was super abusive and I stayed because i had no other support I'm an extremely strong person and I too tend to just bury them in and carry a lot on my shoulders

[Hidden]

Hi maybe the anxiety is a warning sign that you are too overstretched and is telling you to slow down a bit? Just a thought. x

[MCSegura in reply to Hidden]

I wish I could but I'm a perfectionist and I get this weird satisfaction of doing and accomplishing several things at once, plus if I'm not on top of things my house goes to shit

[Hidden in reply to MCSegura]

I have to agree with Pearl67. I think your body is sending you out warning signals to slow down despite your determination not to. The problem is if you don't listen to it you could end up breaking down instead which would be a lot worse. Just my opinion. x

[Pearl67]

Your coping mechanism, as with all of us, does amazing for many years!!!! Then...it's like lillaclil says....."warning!" It shoots out warning signals--high cortisol, panic, anxiety, etc., and for some...it peters out completely! The body was never designed to be at "max capacity" 24/7-365. If it cannot get your attention it just eventually gives out. Depression ultimately is a "gift" to the mind and body after high intensity, anxious, panicky living. Everything slows down to a painful crawl. No energy, no vim no vigor. I was told that and it makes sense. It totally stinks!!! But thinking about it objectively, it makes sense.

[MCSegura in reply to Pearl67]

Tbh im scared of having a heart attack if I'm not able to control my anxiety

[Hidden]

I doubt whether anxiety would cause a heart attack in a young otherwise healthy individual. It is usually caused by furred arteries etc. and is much more common in older people.

[mysmugcat]

Hello and welcome. Well done for quitting drinking.

[Windy101]

Mysmugscat is so right! Quitting drinking is a huge accomplishment! You have done so much for yourself and everyone you know by getting sober!

I wonder how much your anxiety might be tied in to being a pefectionist. With six kids, some of them really young, I'm sorry but your house is never going to be perfect. You could clean day and night and it would still not be enough. So, what a lot of pressure to put on yourself.

Besides. It all goes by so fast; you have no idea. I hope you can "take it easy" and just enjoy the fun of your children while they're still young, even if it means a messy house. Because once they're grown, you won't be able to get these days back. I know 6 kids must be a tremendous amount of work, but I'll bet there's also a lot of joy and laughter that they bring. Later, you can have your perfect house. But for now, maybe you can try to let go of that idea so you can enjoy your children more without worrying. Hang in there; you can do this!

[Hidden]

Oh my, just reading this, I see we are so much a like. I am also 27 years old, with three children under the age of 5. I have twin boys who are three, and a daughter who's 5. I was recently diagnosed with anxiety, I too am a strong person and a super mom. Lately I have been breaking down, it is hard and the meds I am taking I don't think it's helping me, I continue to live in fear thinking something bad is going to happen. My biggest fear is the things that I can't control. I too am a perfectionist and a protector of my children. When I feel like I can't do something, it makes me so anxious. I'm especially anxious now that they all are in school. I'm trying to pray & be positive, but it's so hard. So I completely understand what you're going through.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I'm the same way! I actually had a breakdown two years ago because I was trying to do it all and be everything for everyone. I learned how important it is to take care of yourself to be a good mom and wife although with small kids it can be hard. One day at a time!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I agree Christianmomma. One day at a time!

[PoeticSoul34]

Keep your head up.. Things will get better for you. Take a deep breathe and try to stay focused. I understand its alot to take care of yourself and being a mom but your more then capable of doing it