Losing Hope

[EstiAle]

Hi, I just joined the site. I'm feeling pretty terrible lately and just wanted to get it out somewhere. I have no friends and my relationship has been falling apart for a while now. I have struggled with an eating disorder for 10 years now and I can barely stand to look at myself in the mirrors, I'm just so disgusted with myself. I fail at everything and I feel like such a waste of space and such a burden to everyone.

[poodlelover81]

I have anxiety and I understand feeling like a burden to everyone. Sorry to hear you've been feeling like this. Don't be afraid to reach out to any of us here!

[Hidden]

Hi nice to meet you. You don't say whether you are having any treatment for your depression and eating disorder - are you? If not this is your first port of call.

Why don't you have any friends? Is it difficult for you to make them? Or is it lack of opportunity?

[Meeasy]

You are not at a dead end. There is lots of help. Moving blood and oxygen through your brain with simple excercises is a good start. Watch this for motivation. Good luck ✌️😊

youtu.be/xKJxxq74c-8(Not working as expected?)

[NikkiTexas]

Im so sorry you feel that way, I have days that I feel really down as well and know how hard it can be. But i promise there is light at the end of the tunnel. Have you spoken to your doctor?

[EstiAle]

I have not spoken to a doctor. To be honest I don't know where to start with that. I feel silly asking for help. I don't even know if it's to a general doctor or straight to a therapist ? I had seen a therapist before for my eating disorder but my mom at the time made me feel stupid for seeking help that I stopped and I was 15 and she had final say anyways.

As for not having friends, it's a mixture of lacking exposure to people as I don't get out much since I have a toddler and I have awful social anxiety to begin with. I hate not being able to make friends, it becomes so lonely but I never know to how to make them and actually keep them.

[NikkiTexas]

Its hard to know where to start, a psychiatrist and therapy is best but a medical doctor and therapy can help as well. I have also been through the same thing with my family they never believe that there is something going on it was always I was being dramatic and just needed to get over it. Trust me if it was that easy I would have done it years and years ago. Making friends is important, and can be difficult especially with anxiety but just know that when its meant to be it will be visiting a doctor and talking to them about it can help tremendously

[lock4life]

Hi wanted to let you know that I could not drive for 2 years. The anxiety was overwhelming. But taking "baby steps" first just sitting in the car, then starting it. Finally I drove around the block. am not saying it was easy...It was not. I can now drive short distances. Not a big deal to others. But life changing for me. I agree with others that you tube is a good resource for help with depression and anxiety. God Bless you.