Trust

[melbrown]

I'm trying to learn to trust... going through so much & anxiety/depression/PTSD are basically in control, though I know better it's hard not not fall into their thinking especially since so many failed me as a child. I start with a new therapist tomorrow... I'm sad to no longer have the same one as I did for the PTSD long term exposure treatment. I'm glad I voiced up when making the appointment that I need someone who deals with trauma & PTSD. That was huge... The feelings of abandonment are strong... my heart sank when my group of friends decided to end our weekly zoom meeting (we started during the pandemic to stay connected, especially since one lives alone). I saw it as personal & was scared to voice my thoughts/feelings... that they decided I was too broken & didn't want to be my friend anymore (my husband & I weren't able to meet them in person last Saturday & missed when this got brought up). We all got together yesterday & I wasn't going to say anything... then the moment came that I realized I had to trust them & myself. I got lots of love & reassurance... that now we are able to see each other in person & life in general it's hard to do the weekly zoom- that the thought was every other. They felt bad I was carrying this... it has been a rough month for a few in the group... & it wasn't personal- which I get in my clearer moments. It's so hard with this fear of being alone & being broken beyond repair... How do you deal with these feelings? How do you trust? Any advice on starting with a new therapist?

Thanks for reading my rambling... 💛

[Agora1]

Hi mel, as for starting with a new therapist tomorrow, please give it time. As with any

new relationship, it takes time to get to know each other especially in therapy.

May you session go well and continue filling the need you have in trusting. xx

[Starrlight]

I just started with a new therapist and I’m very happy and I so hope yours will be as good. I’m glad that things are cleared up with your friends. I’m not sure how to trust, I’m also working on this.

[Midori]

It's great news that your friends have realised that you are struggling, too many folk just withdraw.

Any new therapist will need to get adjusted; it's a two- way thing for you both, and I hope it goes well.

cheers, Midori