??? = anxiety = depression

[Amiwrong]

our depression is a result of something. We’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and depression, so it makes sense that depression is the result of the battle with anxiety. Shouldn’t our focus then be on what caused the anxiety? Maybe this is obvious to people nowadays but in my journey it was not. I kept telling doctors and therapists that I didn’t want to focus on the depression because that’s not the root. Over and over I would be told they had to focus on the depression first because it was the most serious, detrimental. Because of that, many many years passed and each time I reached out for help, we’d focus on depression, over and over again.

Now we/therapy are focusing on childhood trauma which is probably what brought on the anxiety (well a mix of trauma, that was probably exasperated by undiagnosed adhd and ASD). Only took 40 years 😂 …I must have a lot of patience lol

[mutazawad]

I feel for you because I had a difficult experience with depression and I still suffer from this disease. I wish you happiness.

[Amiwrong in reply to mutazawad]

I’m sad to hear that you are suffering. I read your bio and see that people around you also suffer. I don’t know what’s more challenging, living with other sufferers or with people who do not understand at all. 🤗 hugs to you

[Rhianna62]

I'm a little confused as to what your question or concern is. So, I'll do my best. I'm not an expert. But I do suffer from Major Depressive Disorder, panic attacks, Severe anxiety, PTSD, Abandonment issues from childhood trauma. Not to mention a Personality Disorder. I've been in therapy and on meds for decades. It seems the childhood trauma will follow me unfortunately for the rest of my life.

I believe Depression and anxiety go hand in hand. It's rare to have one without the other. I take separate medications for each as due to the personality disorder, I have a difficult time with emotion regulation. I'm on a Benzo for anxiety as well as Busphar for anxiety and constant worry and I'm also on a cocktail of meds for depression. On the days I can't see my therapist and I am having painful feelings of fear, loneliness, rejection or abandonment issues, I go on "You Tube" and there is a Clinical licensed counselor who has written several books that deal with childhood trauma. Her name is "Katy M". I watch a lot of her videos..which are extremely helpful.

I guess my best advice is to talk to your Psychiatrist or whoever is treating you to get a better answer. I do believe depression and anxiety in most cases is a chemical imbalance in the brain..it could be a result of childhood trauma or something else. I feel many mental issues are the direct result from childhood trauma in most people. Some reputable websites would be the Cleveland Clinic, The Mayo clinic, Web MD, or Mayfield clinic. I hope this helps.

[Amiwrong in reply to Rhianna62]

Thank you Rhianna62. I guess my post was just stating that it took so long for therapists to realize the anxiety is causing depression and something else is causing the anxiety. Exploring what’s behind the anxiety should have been the goal. I was treated for anxiety and/or depression for many years, but never the root of these things. Now I am finally exploring my cptsd.

Your reply was helpful. I will check out Katy M and I haven’t spent much time on those other reputable websites, so I shall explore those further as well.

I agree that many of people’s issues stem from childhood trauma. Even if people think they had a healthy childhood, I think as our brains are developing anything that happens during that time will cause glitches in the circuitry (it’s a delicate time for healthy brain growth) that carries into adulthood. My partner thinks that yeah, his childhood was not perfect but he was able to get over it lol. He has soooo many issues that he will not see that it’s linked to childhood. A shame really.

Thank you

[jackiesj]

Amiwrong...ty...it is not always trauma but yes the physical(including the brain) chicken or the egg....i now have reached the point in examining the issues...but what to do Now under each new day experience. Time short and if medications not working for sure...why? are we paying for the office DR or real change. do i go in and the same thing accomplished over and over..until next week. Hope CHange Progress...accepting normal...what ever that is to you...and just saying...yes i got thru or no i didnt and another day awaits...Everyone on earth has somethings to deal or not with. and that is ok. i have to stop and ask... my surroundings , nutrtion, social overload...etc...what am i dealing with...you have many answers inside your heart...you can do this.

[Amiwrong in reply to jackiesj]

I keep going back to therapy to try something new. So far nothing as helped, or at least not long term. I think it’s the hope that keeps me going though it’s a roller coaster. I feel this may be my last attempt for therapy. We will look at the cptsd perspective and if that goes no where, I guess acceptance that this is me and my life is where I have to be. Acceptance and self care, as you mentioned. 🤗

[jackiesj]

Amiwrong..please remember you are a wonderful person that people find you compassionate enough to learn from. you are all ready a hero in my books. sometimes others see us better positively than at the moment we see ourselves. best wishes...a new week!

[Amiwrong in reply to jackiesj]

These are very sweet things to say and I appreciate them very much. Thank you!

[jackiesj in reply to Amiwrong]

truth.