Disappointment and sadness

[sad_watermelon]

The thoughts of him not texting me for more than a week, not asking how I’m feeling, how it’s going, not wishing me luck… they drive me crazy. He knows how scared I am, he said he’s my friend, that I can count on him… It turns out he’s the ex I am trying to forget.

I gave so much to make things work during our relationship and now that I decided to let him make at least one thing to make the friendship (that he really wanted us to have) work he is ignoring me completely… I am sure he will never text if I don’t do it first. This makes me so sad. I wanna lay down and cry and I am so angry at myself for it. He doesn’t deserve it, but I am so disappointed that I can’t ignore it.

[Alpakka123]

I understand this very very much, and I am very very sorry. It hurts like Hell. You will move on. It might take awhile, but trust me when I say it does get better. It doesn't seem like it now, though.

[b1b1b1]

Even though it is painful, it is just as well that you are starting to separate from him. Since you are far away and at school where you will meet new people this is an ideal time for both of you to make a break. It would not be a good idea for you to text him. I think that by not texting you he is sending you a message that he too wants to move on. As Alpakka123 says, it is painful, but it will get better.

[CLB1125]

I agree with the other posts. He has made his his feelings known. It's time to concentrate on a new and exciting phase in your life. You'll soon be so busy, one day you will think. hmmm it's been __ weeks and I haven't even thought about what's his name. lol 😉

[Midori]

If you give folk the chance you will soon make friends there, and you'll be able to look back without regret. It happened to me several times, and it always happens to us softies!

Give it a few weeks there and you should be fine.

[Downinil]

Hi sad_watermelon! I have learned that self love is the only healer of the heart and soul. I have learned through many years of challenging relationships, as a widow of nearly ten years after a 20 year marriage where I was the grateful caregiver of the love of my life that it is Me time. Please don’t allow this person to keep you from what You need for self compassion. Please!

[sad_watermelon in reply to Downinil]

But I think what I need is to feel that finally somebody else is loving me. He was my first love and we met pretty late, all of my friends already had multiple relationships behind their backs. He was the only “normal” boy for me. He was different. And he loved me. And then he stopped loving me. And worst - he started treating me badly. But it hurts to know that I gave him so much and in the end he just stopped loving me so easily. I feel like I am not worthy to be loved. I feel like in the next 10 years I will be alone and why not forever. I love myself of course, but I really want to know that I am worthy to be loved.