People treat me like sh1t

[Against_the_current]

It got delayed for tomorrow. Mom's pissing me out acting like I'm marrying this guy and acting like a mother in law. I don't even like him. So i went outside to avoid her. I went to a dance class and my social battery was already out. I got home, mom wasn't asleep. I thought i might hide in the bathroom but she sent me to take out the rubbish and my new post happened while i was out waiting for her to fall asleep .

13yo kid said a cat is more worthy of help than me

Silent scream

Thank you for being my friend

My best friend ignored my birthday

I need meds to forget that mom needs alchol

I'm not safe at home

I'm not safe outside

I have nowhere to go

I have nowhere to hide

I am bleeding but in order to get help i need to pay with money or pictures of my stripped self-worth

Getting scared I'm getting fat and nobody will accept my flesh as a payment for my soul. Please listen! Please listen to my story or attend my funeral. Just don't ignore it. Like my mom ignores the real word. Cheers on wine, beer, Klonopin, barbiturates and weed. Cheers on every antidepressant known by humankind.

I hope. I pray i don't wake up anymore.

A kid wished me to die and be reborn as a cat.

I was sitting in a bench

And a kid asked me “are you sad because you're fat”. And then they tell me “kids don't have a fault”. No you're just a hoe.

I just love them all. All those people who hurt me

I have to calculate when mom's home and when she's awake so i go out and book therapy for when she's first shift and getting drunk from early. I try to be out because home is not safe but out is also not safe. Imagine the stress of calculating every move

I forgot what i was going to say. But I'm not safe at home, I'm not safe outside. Everyone treats my story like burden and one more reason to abuse me (after a story of abuse). I just fcking miss my dad.

[Alpakka123]

Hi, sweetheart. I'm so sorry things are hard. Your last sentence got me. That's what all this is about, isn't it? It's hard I know. I miss mine too. We can miss ours together.

[Against_the_current in reply to Alpakka123]

I miss dad 😭

[Alpakka123 in reply to Against_the_current]

I know you do. Boy do I know. I have tears in my eyes now (not your fault; I'm just saying how I'm reacting). Can you reach out to him and tell him this?