Just woke up and a lavina of problems

[Against_the_current]

I woke up from mom and sis coming from doctor and sis screaming they're not parents, they're nazists and sadists and she'll sue them. From what i got it's because they want to take her to a throat-ears-nose doctor for having something in her throat but she's too sick with her belly and it's hot outside. And now mom's like "she thinks I'm a monster". Guys, i just woke up. And I'm still worried what happened yesterday. I want to calm my sister but she's quiet and im scared to speak because she's absolutely right about everything, instead i had to calm mom with her guilt again. This woman is allergic to criticism. And then wonders why i want to move out. And now out of nowhere mom tells me i should register in the labour market. She probably wants the money they give to non-working. But these were going to be for me, for survival when i move out. She said i could rest and just in the eve of my birthday. My sister wouldn't be so sick if they took a proper care if her

[hypercat54]

What does lavina mean?

[Against_the_current in reply to hypercat54]

Falling snow from a mountain. Like snowball

[hypercat54 in reply to Against_the_current]

Avalanche?

[Against_the_current in reply to hypercat54]

Yes

[Vasiliki99]

nothing fixes so I suppose it is hell really as obstacles we wish would heal dont heal and things dont do when life is this seems to be a real issue for us all

[Against_the_current in reply to Vasiliki99]

It is

[Starrlight]

you are having a bday tomorrow’s? It seems like your parents are trying to take good care of her but that she is refusing help with a doctor

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

It's on 16th aug. We got help of a doctor and the doctor said that she was right she didn't need that type of doctor

[Alpakka123]

Hi,I'm sorry things continue to be so hard.

Do you have plans for your birthday?

[Against_the_current in reply to Alpakka123]

I just hope i don't get in a major fight with mom again

[Alpakka123]

Hi again,

I thought you wanted to work so I'm a bit confused.

There's something someone told me once that I wanted to pass on. It's that you can't save other people; you can only save yourself. I know it's hard (especially when we want so much to help others), but it's actually very true. We are the only ones we can save.

Have a really good birthday, okay? Do something nice for yourself! Is it on the 12th or the 15th? I forgot what you said.

[Against_the_current in reply to Alpakka123]

Thank you. I stress because mom's suffering and when she sees me stressed, she starts telling me how she's suffering more than me. 16 August. Alpakka, can i hug you? I really need comfort rn

[Alpakka123 in reply to Against_the_current]

Sure, sweetheart!I 'll do it Starrlight style (thanks for showing me how to do this, Starrlight!)

(((((((AtC))))))))

[Against_the_current in reply to Alpakka123]

((((((Alpakka))))

[Alpakka123 in reply to Against_the_current]

Hi AtC,I saw my GP today and she gave me an idea to help with my trauma that I'm wondering would help you too.

We talked about my flashbacks, and she asked if I see them in the form of pictures or a movie. I see them as a movie, so she then said that I can go into this movie and edit it (be my own director). My "homework" until I see her in three week's time is to practice directing my " movie". She said that my edit doesn't need to be a good ending; the whole idea is that it become something I can live with/something that is not so traumatic to me.

I have no clue if this would help, but I thought I'd let you know anyway.

Hope you're having a good birthday! Good as can be anyway!

[Vasiliki99]

yes i understand the lavina of problems - in life i wonder if over a long time period we get what we give