I think my sister sees me as just as annoying as she sees mom

[Against_the_current]

Especially when i zone out and am slow and snore after my surgery. So today i slept till late, my sister was hungry but i beggerd her to cuddle her before i leave on Thursday. At the end she was really hungry and i got up to buy her something but i realized i bled on mom's bedsheets. It was close to mom coming back so i wanted to change them first. Then mom came and actually she's kind to me when she's not drinking. I feel bad. I feel like i misjudge. And sis went even crazier and mom said "she's nervious". Sis said "one snores, the other one oinks". But at least she's honest, i never know who is who. I feel unreal

[Starrlight]

You care so much for her and I’m sure she knows that and loves you so much

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you

[SoporRose]

Your sister is a teenager; she is bound to be rebellious and obnoxious. Part of the Teenager Job Description requires that people her age find ALL family members annoying. She'll outgrow a lot of the attitude. But it's OK to help her to do that by reminding her to be kind.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you. Needed this reminder

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I think she loves you, judging by what you've written over time. But neither of you grew up in a situation where you were shown how to express love and affection and the two of you will have to figure that out. I hope that's something you'll be able to do together.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Me too but i fear we'll be separated and things will never be the same. We used to be kids and play together. Now she's too tired with school. Then she will be too grown up. Then she will imigrate. I want to go back. I'm doing a regression. Since 2020 im going back. Now im acting 17 insted of 23. And I feel guilty for living on a different place even when i don't have classes. Well yeah i can't study for the final exam at home but i feel bad for escaping

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

She now said she should have gone to dad's until im here because I got her infected with my sickness 😭😭😭

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

Well, to be fair, she may have a point there. No one wants to get sick. But she decided to stay and she shouldn't make you feel about that. You are your mother's daughter as much as your sister is and it is OK for your mom to choose to take care of you, too. In fact, it's really nice that your mom wanted to help you get well.