Still scared if im cursed

[Against_the_current]

The psychic said mom's demon makes her aggressive at night. At day i feel bad for her and at night we all go nuts. Another psychic grandma took me to in 2017 said the ghost of a neighbour is making us crazy, getting in us and giving us their thoughts instead of ours. Also so many bad things happening

[gajh]

No you are not cursed.

[Against_the_current in reply to gajh]

Thank you

[Starrlight]

I wouldn’t trust them myself.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

You're right

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

I once went to a psychic and I saw something in her eyes and heard something in her voice that scared me about her even before we had a chance to get started. I believe God is looking out for us and I believe usually psychics are only looking out for themselves.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Yeah. Just on one Easter i lost connection to God. I was in my mom's village, midnight at the church waiting for Jesus to ressurect but i felt like He didn't. I felt like God was dead. I lost the connection. I lost grasp of reality. I'm even thinking if i had died from something during covid and if this is Hell. It's unreal

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

I’ve also lost connection with God in the way I used to know Him, as I changed. I started really questioning once again and my quest is still on.

I get that-Sometimes I do feel like this earth is a small hell and on the best days it’s a tiny bit of heaven mixed in with that. But I hope to go to heaven. Always my biggest dream.

One time as a teen I almost died and I was unconscious and saw black cloaked figures coming slowly for me (when I was convulsing) then a giant hand picked me up into the sky and I saw my body and my brother and best friend trying to help my body. Then I was placed back down and back into my body.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

That's so scary! We know nothing about the other world and spirits. So I'm scared

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

Oh I’m soooooo sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you. Please forgive me. I shared it because I like that there is life after this place. It gives my suffering eventually a way out. Are you ok?

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

I just want to not exist. Not in this real or another. I'm scared. If there's something we don't have evidence which is which and what is going on. What if there are demons everywhere

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

I’ve felt that way a lot. I sometimes think how it’s not fair because I wasn’t asked if I wanted to exist or not. No demons, no demon can hurt you.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

I don't want to exist

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

((((((((((((((((Hug))))))))))))))) are you safe? I’m so sorry you are suffering.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

I'm not. I told grandparents im suffering and mom's drinking and if they tell her, im done

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

So your mom wouldn’t support you… I’m so sorry. What did your grandparents do/say when you told them?