As if I didnt have enough to deal with I have IRS problem now, my therapist is leaving and I had a bad experience with pastor of church Ive been attending.
The only thing I had left giving me any pozitive feeling was singing in church. Now thats ruined. I keep on praying that my last day will come already.
PeaceNeed
I'm very sorry you are having such a difficult time.
Is there no chance of fixing things with your Pastor? If not can you find another church?
With all this going on it sounds like you could use some professional help. Do you have a therapist? A doctor?
If you feel you may hurt yourself please call 988 for support
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Hi DolphinI'm supposed to be getting a new therapist. My real world situation is getting worse . I've already said enough about that. I'm not planning anything, but I'm really not going out of my way to go running to doctors either. Thank you for showing concern. This is one of the few places I find that . I've been kicked around every where else I've turned to.
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I'm very glad to hear you plan on getting a new therapist. I hope you don't have to wait too long to get started. I know there is a long wait for many people.
We are here to support you. That's the beauty of this site. There is always someone to talk to and so many of us understand the struggles.
Don't lose hope, sometimes that's all we have.
Again thank you for responding. Dolphin.
Dear Peace,
I wrote a reply earlier, but I don't think it posted properly, so I'm writing it again.
I am sorry you're in a bad place right now and feeling so depressed. And it's so much harder when you don't have family support or close friends. I know that feeling of abandonment oh so well. Hopefully you will find a new therapist who will be able to listen to you and help sort things out.
I also know the feeling of wanting to throw in the towel and just let life be over with. Right now I'm dealing with a dozen very serious issues and the situation is quite dire. There is nobody to help me and at 70 years old, the possibility of being homeless is not a pretty thing.
First, let me comment on your issue with the IRS. I have first hand experience with owing them money. The best thing to do is either contact them yourself, or if you have an accountant, have them represent you. The IRS can put you into an Installment Plan and even possibly forgive some penalties and interest. I had that done.
As for calling 988....PLEASE DON'T EVER CALL THEM! I had a terrible experience with them, posted previously about it. If they think you're a danger to yourself, they can send the police. And trust me...you don't want to end up in Emergency Services, locked in a cold and padded room for 18 hours. That's what happened to me and it caused severe anxiety and depression and scared the hell out of me. If you ever feel like you're going to do something harmful, either come to this website or speak to your therapist. That's what I did and damn...I'll still here. And I'm battling financial woes, being alone, unemployment, and if that's not enough....lung cancer for the 4th. time now. I just take one day at a time and one issue at a time. I do the best I can, and when I can't....like I said, I come here and post and ask for help. There are a lot of great people on this site.
Please take it easy on yourself and know that you're worthy of a meaningful life. And mostly....you are not alone.
Thanks AlwaysWarning about 988. I have called them .....not anymore. I spoke with IRS sending them payment tomorrow. In my worst moments which are becoming more frequent I pray to God for a natural way out. I'm 65 and don't really want to reach 70.
I really apologise for not having anything positive to say back. Thank you for your response.
You certainly don’t need to apologize for anything. I absolutely understand where you’re coming from. I’m glad you’re taking care of the IRS.
And I do understand your depression and feeling as if life has no meaning. I lost my beloved stepdad 19 years ago and my mom nine years ago. They were married for 30 years and had the most incredible marriage. After my stepdad died from mesothelioma in 2005, my mom didn’t wanna go on any longer. They were truly each others soulmates. The 10 years that she lived after he passed away was very difficult for her, especially since she battled with lung cancer and had surgery .
at that time I lived in New York and she was in South New Jersey. I took off from work every Friday, and every weekend I drove to NJ to spend time with her. We spent a lot of time together and she told me she would never have survived without me. However, after my stepdad died, the light in her eyes really dimmed considerably. She tried the best she could to find meaning in life, but it wasn’t the same .
when she passed away in 2015, I had her buried in one of his shirts, and she was finally laid to rest where she always wanted to be, right next to him. so I do understand the emptiness you feel. However, life can change in the blink of an eye, and you never know, you may find something meaningful to hold onto. So don’t give up yet. Again, you’re not alone.
Thank you Always. Im in nyc i hate it here. My body is deteriorating and the emotional problems I have interfer with my ability to deal with everything.Sorry to be ngative.
My circumstances arent good. I was in a housing program for a long time and I was driven out.
Now Im old and dont have the experience or knowledge to deal with all the problems Im facing.
Dear Peace,
I certainly do understand. I come from NY myself. I lived in Doulaston, which is on the Queens/Nassau border. NY is tough, but honestly NJ is just as bad. Sometimes I'm sorry I moved here.
I am sorry you're having such a difficult time. Have you reached out to Social Services or contacted a therapist?
I will keep a good thought for you. Be well!
I wish for well . Im soo scared i can barely function.
Yes, you're correct. Typo. Douglaston
just wondered my late aunt lived in new York she resided in Jackson heights amongst other places in the city she always said it was safer than Scotland.
Perhaps it was years ago, however Jackson Heights NY now is not the safest of areas. I wasn't aware that Scotland wasn't safe. Really, nowhere is completely safe anymore. Even the upscale areas here in NJ are experiencing high crime rates.
The whole world seems to be sliding into chaos.
The whole world seems to be sliding into chaos.
Yes, it surely is.
I'm sorry, I just got to get this out. 
It's just getting worse every passing day..
Just when thins were getting better.
Just trying to get through the day. Very discouraged. 
“It gets better” is just temporary...
