First full day out of hospital

So it’s been a day since I was released from captivity. Lol. Went to Starbucks first then dropped off prescriptions had McD while waiting. Went home and roommates were there and it was really awkward. But then we went out to a nice dinner(I treated). Set up my meds for the week had a lot of rearranging to do. Sat outside in the back porch most of the evening. Partly to just be outside and some avoidance issues of the roomies. I know I shouldn’t have but I feel ashamed and like I let them down. I shouldn’t no shame in getting help. Journaled read then went to bed almost over slept but got up and dressed for church. Church was very emotional and I wound up going for a long drive then reached out to one of my group buddies and we are catching up.

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Good to hear you have visited some of the good food places, upon release😊

Sounds like you have done well for your first day, take it easy on yourself.

Great that you reached out to one of your group buddies.

All best wishes to you x

[Agora1]

I think you did very well tfry1. No need to ever be ashamed in getting the help you needed. You did more than I ever did when I got out of the hospital. It took me a little while to adjust to a no structured day like in the hospital but within a short time I adjusted and people forget you were ever in.

Continued success in going forward now that you have the tools you need to help yourself. xx

[dukenu]

Good for you! At one point with my anxiety I was so bad I couldn't eat or take care of myself but after an er visit I couldn't (maybe didn't qualify for) residential treatment. I just wanted to be taken care of but I feared being in a place like that...I was so bad I wanted to go but didn't qualify...I guess you have to say you feel like hurting yourself or others in order to be placed and I honestly didn't feel that way.

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I told the truth said I was afraid of taking care of myself. Unfortunately I wanted out so bad I may not been thinking straight and now thinking I left too soon. Still having problems adjusting.

[dukenu]

If you think it really helped then don't be afraid to request to go back, Im sure a doctor would support you in doing what helps you best. It sucks when you are sick and people dont just know how to help, they ask you what you want and you really are not in a position to make that kind of judgment--you are so sick just having to think about it makes you even sick. Everyone in these forums seems nice...keep coming back here too if it helps. Im finding it therapeutic just empathizing with others and trying to support others...if you haven't done it, try to encourage others on here yourself in whatever way you can. Just being kind to others seems to elevate my mood.

[DaisyDexterMom]

It sounds like you are doing things that make you feel better. Keep up the good work. It will be a bit awkward, but that is natural. Focus on the things that bring you strength and happiness. Let the meds do their part as well lol. I am proud of you.