Because how often they come and just go... but when they are there, it seems as you will feel the pain forever. Idk if I’m making any sense.
My big sister messaged me “have you seen a therapist yet?” As if I’m the one who is mentally ill.. idk maybe I am because I keep blaming my mom for how miserable and lonely I am.. it’s not her fault she doesn’t know how to be a mom. Today is her birthday and I’ve sent her things in the mail and messaged her yesterday to see if she got it because I was nervous mailing it (had things of value in there) and of course no response. She only loves me if I put up with her abuse.
I also thought about my previous partner again, about how I keep making him into this person who secretly still wants to be with me when, he definitely definitely does not. My brain is using this as some stupid protection mechanism because I still can’t get over him and him not fighting more for me..
What is wrong with me..