Is it my fault? How can this be happening?

[Against_the_current]

Today im crying myself out - my ex which i still love is moving to Canada and i have an exam tomorrow. How could his company bankrupt now? He said if i reached out sooner, it would be different but we had broken up, and that he "already moved on" and makes it feel like it's my fault and my country's fault that they don't offer enough jobs and let him do drvgs. This guilt. I wrote my death sentence. Why is it happening? And my sister doesn't want me home? I need people around for support and safety, food and water and meds

[gajh]

It is not your fault. I am sorry it is happening.

[Against_the_current in reply to gajh]

Thank you. Needed to hear that

[SoporRose]

If you can, hang in there and get through your exam, then think through the stupid guy and your home situation.

Let us know how you feel after your test.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I'm after my test. I try to sleep but i wake up nauseous every 2 hours. Dad wants me home, mom and sis don't, i personally struggle at both places

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

Do you have any other exams or work to do or are you all finished now?

I know both places are struggles. Where do you struggle less?

[SayNOtoPanic]

Try to focus on yourself and your exam. As hard as it seems in the moment, you can do it. Guys can be bozos. If he’s not the right one, may the right one come. Hang in there.

[Against_the_current in reply to SayNOtoPanic]

Thank you. I needed to know he's an idiot, not me

[SayNOtoPanic in reply to Against_the_current]

Yep he’s an idiot/bozo. May a gem come your way. Hang in there.

[Against_the_current in reply to SayNOtoPanic]

Thank you. It hurts so much. Some romantic song came on the tv and I thought how alone i will be. I want him. Idk whether to text him. Started panicking and my face is trembling and ready to cry. Even texted mom im coming home tomorrow because i can't bear this

[SayNOtoPanic in reply to Against_the_current]

Of course it’s sad and will hurt. But you will be ok, slow and steady. Spend time with people that make you feel happy and do something nice for yourself to direct the energy to cheering up. 🙏🏻(hug)

[Tracey0101]

Give yourself a hug and be kind and proud of yourself you deserve love from those that make you happy and good about you because they are the ones that make you smile and happy be around people who love you just the way you are be you Don change you for others. You are you and whoever don't like you as you are then they are not worth it and not worth your effort and time with you don't waste your time and energy with those who don't care. Set yourself boundaries and discipline who you want in your life and those who you want to share your life with go to those who love you for you and not those who doesn't want you for you they don't deserve your friendship or relationship with you you deserve better treated.