Spinning and Spinning and Spinning - Paralyzed

[Hiip30]

I feel like every Tuesday or Wednesday I slip into this intense heaviness in my chest. I work from home and this sales job has really messed with my mental health because I think what I am getting paid is unacceptable. I do enough to get by...and most days I do not do a whole lot. Feeling like everyone around me that has a remote job in tech sales is so productive and has to do so much more than me. They can take on a full day of working, emails, calls, etc... which if I want to earn more....I will probably have to learn. I just keep having constant paralysis where I sit and think, scroll and do nothing and I know it does not benefit me. I feel I have the tools and resources to better my situation...but I repeatedly and continuously do nothing about it. I know I can break things down, make things easier, one task at a time. But I am not sure why everything feels so hard and I just slip into this feeling of fear, doubt, worry. I know I should be doing more...we all know we have to work our butts off for anything to feel rewarding. If we sit around it hurts us, we know we have to do something, we know if we work hard we feel good, then we can reward ourselves on small wins but then...at least I don't do much about anything and it's been happening for too long. I share this with my therapist and it just feels like I am sharing the same things every week. Anybody have anything they can share that got them up and going? What's everyone's routine that has helped them? There are other aspects of my life lol....a creative outlet, learning financial literacy, reading more, but I just keep spinning and spinning

[LoveforAll41]

Hi Garret,

I am so sorry that you have this heaviness and distress. Do you have work meetings on those days or something that brings it up weekly?

I often feel crappy on Sunday nights before going to work on Monday.

Do you feel you are getting paid too much to do so little or that you are underpaid? I had a really really bad stretch where there was not much for me to do at work and I just went and sat at the office and went home... I ended up in a really bad place feeling guilty. Know that they hired you for stated pay and that is fine until someone addresses it.

I think that for me I feel most motivated when I feel I have worth no matter my success. If I feel like I need to do school and excel at work to feel some amount of self esteem it never comes. When I feel I have worth no matter what my life is energized and I have desires to help my team at work and learn in school. So I guess try to keep self-flagellation out of it. I don't know, I am interested in your thoughts and others'.

[Hiip30 in reply to LoveforAll41]

what do you do for work? Are you remote?

[Hiip30 in reply to LoveforAll41]

not getting paid enough, not nearly enough

[LoveforAll41 in reply to Hiip30]

My job title is robot arm technician. There was a fair gap there where I had no robot arms to work on 😬.

[Vonus5591]

youtu.be/k0GD3tZdf-k?si=eyk...(Not working as expected?)

[Vonus5591]

Talk to sales people and get tips

[Vonus5591]

affiliate marketing youtube might be what you really want to look at!