Some one please tell how do I make myself feel better ?

My mother treat me like I am a garbage , wastage , useless , hopeless , worthless. I do not understand why they even gave birth to me when all they can do is hate me. I do not understand why my father married my mother if he is so ashamed of her. Or why my mother call me her child when all she can do is release stress on me , scream on me . My father act as I am nothing and can not do anything right . Make me sit for hours and give me lectures on how I should be and what I should do . And I can not be what they want me to be and can not do things that they want me to do . I spent my whole childhood to be what my parents wanted , to make them proud of me but it never happened . I always disappointed them . I just wish to sleep forever . Why to even try doing anything when the result is nothing . My throat pain so badly and I can not stop my tears . I barely remember how it feels to be alive . I can only write my thoughts all on a paper then tear it so my parents can not read it . It feels like nothing absolutely nothing can make me feel like I am a human . I just feel like a dead thing . Like nothing is left in my life .

[Joeyman]

Hello friend. Don’t despair. Life is difficult for everyone but the level of difficulty and the ability to cope with tough situations varies for different people. I can relate to some of your problems. It’s hard when parents have certain expectations about their kids while not focusing on the things their kids are good at. You can think of simple things in life you are good at, be it cooking, drawing, gardening, baby sitting, cleaning etc. If you feel like it you can pursue these and find joy doing these. You don’t need to accomplish the most difficult tasks to be happy in life. Happiness can be found in the simplest of activities. We are all in this universe together.

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Thank you for replying. I will follow your advice.

[Hidden]

I am so sorry that your parents treat you the way they do. I totally understand how you feel and "wanting to sleep forever". But you are meant for something great in this life. You may not know it now but you will. Without divulging personal information, answer these questions to yourself: First of all, are you a minor? If not, are you able to move out on your own and be self-sufficient? You don't have to answer this to me but think of yourself's well-being. Do you have someone you can confide it, such as friend, pastor/minister, teacher, etc.? If you do, utilize them. Find a safe haven where you can think rationally. However, if you are unable to move out, have you tried to have a serious discussion with your parents? Maybe start a dialog by saying" I feel that I have been a disappointment to you both...." Don't right away start placing blame on them because they will shut down. Just explain how their words hurt you by putting the feelings on yourself. Another example, "For many years you tell me how you want me to be and I try but yet I seem to let you down." Get them to explain what they are wanting but try to keep the tone of the conversation as calm as possible. Once voices are raised, nothing will get accomplished. I hope you know that you matter! I hope some of these suggestions are helpful. I wish you all the best and stay strong. You have made this far, don't quit now.

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Thank you for replying. I didn't knew what to do so I wrote what ever I was feeling. But thank you for the suggestion.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Writing is a very good outlet and keep on writing. Sometimes, expressing your feelings without fear of judgment is healthy. Painting is another outlet that releases feelings and pinned up frustration. It doesn't matter if your painting is good or not just know that you did it and you know the meaning behind it makes all the difference. You never know what hidden talents you may have.

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Thank you for replying. I will paint from now on when I feel depressed. Thank you.

[Hidden]

You. Are the most precious thing right now. Think that. Believe that. Trust that.

I ******* hated myself for days on end lol. I’m 27 and just barely started seeing my worth. You have the same worth as me. And it’s very valuable, just saying. No one is lesser or greater than the next, just so you know.

The treatment that you mention is really just your thoughts about it.

I have just about no friends. I have my support system, yeah, just about no one seeks me or seems to show much care. It bothered me, yeah, but I had to learn to love myself. And love myself to a point I used to be confused about like, “what the **** does that even mean?”

Be mindful that attacks or anger or hate from another is usually not personal. Almost always isn’t. It’s a transition of stress, which luckily for us, can be gotten and turned into the opposite

Sounds weird maybe lol, I’ve done a lot of “soul searching” and spent an enormous amount of time with myself and managed to learn and understand what probably is not new thing.

Humbleness helps with teaching yourself to put yourself(mentally) in a place lower than you actually are but not fully believing that you’re that low. Example: you’re a millionaire with passive income(money made without work), but live in a RV and go around town helping others and work minimum wage.

It’s taught me that, it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks or does to me. They’re going to do it regardless of any fact. Why should I then, let it affect and the things I do?

Idk where I was going with that example part hahahaha I got a bit of adhd and Also im a stimulant addict in recovery.

Don’t let anything beat you down. Do not question your birth or anything alike. Question why the things harming you even harm you. Because the fact in all of what you said and I’m saying is, you’re precious and nothing can take away from that. You keep on going. You keep on moving up never down. Either keep it straight or up. Look at the positive on every negative. You’ll come to peace with yourself when you learn how to do that

Negative to a positive example: the light was cut off because I couldn’t pay the bill or something happened and I have no light. So that’s a negative thing. You still got clothes, food, shoes, eyes, legs, ability to think of the positive, ability to do something. At least there’s still all those things. Oh well, power is out, sure, that sucks. At least I got all those other things 🙂 and smile.

Smile even when you don’t. Your brain for whatever reason likes that. At least mine does. Idk how I know that. But I’m glad I do. I bet you got a pretty cool smile too. Just saying

Stay strong and my bad for making this like stupid long hahaha I say a lot, a lot of the time 😅 much love to you 💛

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much. You are a amazing motivater.I will follow your advice. Thank you.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

❤️❤️ we are all here for you. Don’t invest your time in why something isn’t. Invest it in why is isn’t 😉 if that makes no sense, it’s a good thought to go to when shit gets rough. The point is to shift your mind to something other than the stuff beating you down.

More love to you 😀

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

fakehackr, your words to "wonderingcloud" were powerful and motivating.

Your advice was meaningful because you experienced it as well. Great response xx

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I appreciate you agora1

[hurtingheart1]

💞💞💞I’m so sorry it hurting you soo much!!! Just remember you’re not alone we care here and you are very much a valuable human being . Your parents surely do love you but don’t seem to knw properly how to show you healthy love! Maybe they themselves just never learned or were not shown that healthy type of love either?? But you know it does exist it is meant to be better & there is hope please hang on to that!!! Don’t cry to much😂🥺I hate to think of you there crying feeling this way!!

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Thank you for replying. Actually you are right, my parents never received healthy love themselves. They were also treated by the family in way no one should be treated. Thank you ones again.

[hurtingheart1 in reply to Hidden]

You are welcome - I understand & empathetic on this💞☺️🌻