I feel paralyzed emotionally

[Lindsey14]

Quite frequently i find myself feeling emotional numbness. I know i care, more than I feel i care type thing if that makes sense. This feeling scares me, feels like im going mad. It fuels my over thinking, what if I don't love/care about anything or one? I don't know of it's a depression/anxiety thing or if it's just me....i know I've posted about this before, but i still haven't defeated it.

[red_door]

I think what's important first is that you care about you. You're important and you deserve to feel good about yourself and your life. How are you feeling about yourself before these thoughts come? I would imagine that you do care about other people, otherwise these thoughts wouldn't concern you. I think you're already doing a good job because you're verbalizing this and that's big. Have you tried working with a therapist? A good one will be able to guide you through where these thoughts are coming from.

[Lindsey14 in reply to red_door]

I don't really feel myself with the fogged up head, also I have been thinking about a therapist for awhile, but not sure I cant afford it

[red_door in reply to Lindsey14]

Completely relate. I know Betterhelp offers financial aid, and I think they're still offering a free week trial as well.

[Lindsey14 in reply to red_door]

Doesn't it cost a lot on there too?

[red_door in reply to Lindsey14]

When you subscribe, there's an option to apply for financial aid when you're picking your billing plan. It's just a series of questions. After you answer the questions, they tell you how much they will discount the price. You can also cancel at any time. I haven't had any issues with that. I've cancelled and resubscribed many, many times.

[ge99]

Hi

Sometimes you can feel a little depleted and used up, this doesn’t mean that there is nothing left inside or that you don’t care. It means you have to be kind to yourself, and fill yourself up with all the things you like and want to hold onto.

You will have loving feelings again when you get through this, because you have the knowledge that something is missing and you want to feel again.

You have the opportunity to start again, you are empty now and this enables you to be whoever you want to be. This is a new beginning so read more, talk more and rest more, fill yourself up with good things, you are on the road less travelled.

I hope this helps ❤️