Bad day.

[Dragoonlady]

So am sorry ahead of time being annoying, today is really hard and my usual self smoothing tips are not working well today. My therapist recommended reaching out to more local community activities. The problem is most are religious based and am not religious at all. Which if you are that's okay, just I have not a good history with churches and church groups. Am kind of just doing a ramble post to keep my mind busy cause I feel so hopless right now that am useless and don't deserve anything good in life. I can't shake the feeling today at all. Am sorry for bothering anyone. Just the feeling of being completely alone has really hit hard today.

[gajh]

Please know that you are not alone. You are not being annoying. I am sorry you are having a really hard day today. Your therapist suggested it, but didn't have any suggestions for you? Sorry I am the wrong person to have any clue on community activities for you. I do not get out much at all myself.

[Dragoonlady in reply to gajh]

They recommend a couple but their all faith base due to the area. Am in rural area so there is limited resources that are in person. Living where am at has it perks but also down sides. One of the downsides is that unfortunately

[gajh in reply to Dragoonlady]

I wish I had something to recommend for you. I hope someone else does. I would be interested to hear.

[Dragoonlady in reply to gajh]

I think it's just feeling the bad feeling try to think it through what caused it and then hoping it pass through. Just don't like when i have days where the usual tricks I have don't work but that's okay. I appreciate you just replaying that means alot. I really really mean that.

[gajh in reply to Dragoonlady]

Well I am very glad that you posted. Now you definitely know that you aren't alone. I am here and I care.

[NrvsBrkdn79]

Yesterday, you posted a very nice positive affirmation that lifted my day. I'm sorry you're having a bad day today. If nothing else, I want to say thank you and I appreciate you. Some days are simply tougher than others. Some moments are way worse than others. Know that things can and will change and you'll get through this!

[corgi_fan817]

Dragoonlady, you are not useless. One place you can try to find activities is meetup.com Not sure where you are located...how close are you to any metro areas?

Please know you are not a bother. I know how you feel as I have had those feelings as well.

[catsrock]

Never worry about reaching out to us. That's what we're here for. You are not useless. Please talk to yourself like a caring parent would: "You are a unique and beautiful human being and deserve to feel better. I'm sorry you are having such a rough day." Something like that.

[Marysblue]

Not annoying, we are here for support. Can you look at some online Meetup groups,or are there garden, game clubs, toastmasters ,or volunteer. I like volunteering at homeless day center cause I can show up if I want to and if I'm having a bad day it's no big deal to stay in. In fact I only make it there about once every two months cuz it's hard to get myself out.

Hope things get better for you soon. Just remember that things do get better.

[Dragoonlady in reply to Marysblue]

I spent some of my morning looking into it to find something, if the weather gets a little better am going to try to hike or take more walks in general

[Marysblue in reply to Dragoonlady]

Great idea. I walk everyday, it lowers my anxiety and helps my depression. At least once a week I go out to a wildlife refuge and walk in the woods by myself and that really helps my mood.There is a hiking group here in town but I prefer to go out there by myself.

[Agora1]

Hi Dragoonlady, have you tried looking into community activities through the

Library or Park District. So many wonderful things to explore that you may find

interesting. xx

[Dragoonlady in reply to Agora1]

I did try to look into some, some are a far drive for me that it just would take more effort to get to. But maybe it's something I should push myself to do. Won't lie it scares me a little to do something like that, I have a bad habit or rejecting people before they get a chance to reject me. It's a trauma response that am working on but it's so hard to get past the feeling of not wanting to be judge or hurt by strangers.

[Agora1 in reply to Dragoonlady]

Oh I'm sorry dear.

I didn't go for the socializing years ago but as a learning experience.

Sewing, Learning Guitar, Cooking, Sign Language, CPR Classes, First Aid,

Book Reading. *that was an interesting one in being read to as an adult.

I see now why children love to have someone read to them. It was sooo relaxing

as well as interesting in letting your mind take over the visual.

Of course these were all near by so I didn't have to go far at all.

I hope you do find something. It helps keep the mind busy.. xx