Did I do something wrong?

[Swampy_]

Hello everyone. I have been in a really dark mental state for a few months now. In the fall of 2023 I matriculated into veterinary school. I have never felt so happy and worthy in a long time. I looked at this experience as a new journey to lead myself and my long term girlfriend and our dog to a happily ever after. Due to being out of undergraduate classes for about 5 years the course load was very intense and overwhelming. On the brink of failing I think my girlfriend was fed up with my negativity and the long distance. She would try to make plans to see me or vice versa but It was difficult and expensive to find the right time. This made it hard for me to focus and I worried about it all the time and I feel like I failed as a partner. We have been together for about 10 years and during the summer of my graduation from college she got an apartment in a place I really did not care to stay but I loved her. I wouldn't move away so far away from my family if I did not plan to spend the rest of my life with this person. Recently she expressed how she wanted kids and marriage. Things I was not able to do at the moment because of finances. I did not want to bring a child into the world and not be able to properly care for it. She also mentioned how she wants her independence and has been enjoying her life and told me we are not together anymore. Going from talking to her everyday to no contact has been a miserable experience. I feel lost. She was basically my only friend that I told everything to. Now my days are filled with silence. I am excited about going back to school in the fall but I am extremely hurt. Sorry I just had to get this off my chest.

[Agora1]

Hi Swampy, I can imagine that you are hurt and lonely, however she may have just

done you a favor. You seem to have your head on straight as to what takes priority

in your life. Getting that education you are so looking forward to can allot you the

benefits you need to one day marry and start a family.

This is a new journey for you. Look forward to the goal. Things happen for a reason

in life. You have an open road ahead of you. Your life didn't end with her parting but

just began for you. You're young, ambitious and have the whole world ahead of you.

I'm proud of who you are and who you will become in your own time.

My best to you in reaching your goal. xx

[Swampy_ in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much. This meant a lot.

[Agora1 in reply to Swampy_]

You're very welcome. You've Got This xx

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. It is wonderful that you are excited about going back to school in the fall. Stay focused on that goal. Take really good care of yourself. Reach out for the support you need.

[Swampy_]

Thank you