We dated 4 months. Good and bad, mostly good. Had a problem with her ex (they were together 17 years). Ended up with her getting a restraining order against him (he was alcoholic and the police made her get the order).
Her and I break up in Feb 2017. Her idea. She tells me she needs time for self exploration, "me time". I know, I didn't buy it either.
Seven months later, Sept 2017. She calls me, we phone talk for a week. She tells me she loves me the night we meet to talk. We are back together.
Then I found out truths about the time apart. She was talking to her ex 6 weeks before we broke up. They got back together and it didn't work.
Then she acquired a friend with benefits who was a client of her law firm. He had a girlfriend in another state. At the same time, she went on a dating site. Had sex with a couple guys on there while she had the fwb.
So then her and I get back together. The betrayals. She had been talking with her ex for 6 weeks before we broke up. The week we were talking about getting back together (hadn't met in person yet) her fwb wanted to see her to say goodbye. They had oral sex in a parking garage. She said she did that so he would leave her alone.
We are back together a year. It's been good. I do get anxious about her past behavior, and to me the parking garage incident was cheating.
I am dealing with anxiety and recently panic attacks. Any thoughts?