Feeling philophobic

[Against_the_current]

Started with abuse at school and then seeing my stepmother pregnant. With my mom saying how bad having children is and how bad heartbreak is and ppl on the forums (not here) talking about insane health problems related to pregnancy and at the hospital for my leg every time being asked "you're so fearful and afraid of pain, how will you give birth", I actually feel like i don't want my leg to heal because it's a good excuse to stay miles away from boys. The worst part is i can have feelings but i prefer them online. My life is online since covid. I might be asexual biromantic as well. I'm having stomachache from anxiety and im going hysterical

[LoveforAll41]

I am so sorry that you have all of this percolating Against! I think it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. You find someone who is right for you and things will work themselves out. We avoid pain for a reason, it keeps us safe. We just have to dial it in to a good level. I wish you peace, hope, and strength. ☮️

[Against_the_current in reply to LoveforAll41]

Thank you. I needed to hear that "you better have loved and lost"

[BlueAgave]

Terrible how unprofessional some medical professionals can be. We all feel pain differently and no shame in trying to avoid it. I never gave birth to any children, and I'm okay with that. I've just had to ignore people who bothered me about it. You do you, that's all that matters.

[Against_the_current in reply to BlueAgave]

Thanks

[SoporRose]

You're awfully young to feel you have to decide about having children now. Put that worry aside. Let yourself heal before you worry about having children. You have lots of time.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Hope he understands that

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

If he doesn’t, then he’s controlling and you should run from the relationship.

[Starrlight]

I can understand feeling asexual biromantic and there’s nothing wrong with it.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

People on my social media attack me like Russia for that. Glad you think so

[Starrlight in reply to Against_the_current]

(((((((((Hug))))))))