Severely depressed

[Atenns2]

I feel so depressed today. I feel sad and hopeless. I am over 60 years old but I am just crying today. I look at my wife and kids today and it made me cry when they asked how I am feeling. They deserve a stronger Dad and husband but depression has worn me out. They try to say kind words but they dont know the anguish and despair I feel. I forced myself to eat one little meal today. I know that God says that He will not treat us as our sins deserve so I still have hope that God will show me mercy and reduce my pain. I have all kinds of physical symptoms and my sight is declining from Glaucoma. May God help me.

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[Hidden]

I just found this online group today because I too am suffering severe depression and loneliness. I don't have any answers but I wanted you to know I am here and reading what you wrote.

[BrightApril]

I'm concerned about you and whether you are under the care of a psychiatrist or therapist or both. You deserve to be well so you must take your depression seriously by getting the help you need. Share with your wife how you feel. Your depression is not just about you, your family is suffering with you. It is imperative that you get help or seek new help now.

[Atenns2 in reply to BrightApril]

I wont be here if I didn't take it serious

[Hidden]

Does your wife understand depression and anxiety? My husband has no clue, even after being with me for over 30 years. His solution is to avoid me. He only wants to be around me when I'm happy and smiling which hasn't been very often in the last 18 months. So on top of depression, my marriage is falling apart. I'm so alone and I have no one to talk to until I see my therapist on Jan 3. The day looms over me like a black cloud.

[Atenns2 in reply to Hidden]

I am sorry about your suffering. My wife does not understand depression. No one does. I think even the Psychiatrist does not understand. Only God understands. But my wife understands that I am going through a terrible experience and does try to encourage me. She gets wearied sometimes then I try to understand with her and let her rest. It's the same with my kids. They understand that I am going through some terrible pain and they try to say kind and encouraging words. How I wish your husband can show more understanding.

[Atenns2 in reply to Hidden]

I am sorry about your suffering. My wife does not understand depression. No one does. I think even the Psychiatrist does not understand. Only God understands. But my wife understands that I am going through a terrible experience and does try to encourage me. She gets wearied sometimes then I try to understand with her and let her rest. It's the same with my kids. They understand that I am going through some terrible pain and they try to say kind and encouraging words. How I wish your husband can show more understanding.

[Atenns2 in reply to Hidden]

I am sorry about your suffering. My wife does not understand depression. No one does. I think even the Psychiatrist does not understand. Only God understands. But my wife understands that I am going through a terrible experience and does try to encourage me. She gets wearied sometimes then I try to understand with her and let her rest. It's the same with my kids. They understand that I am going through some terrible pain and they try to say kind and encouraging words. How I wish your husband can show more understanding.

[LadyZen]

Sending you many prayers.