For some reason, a combination of those is my main issue. I absolutely despise myself and I also despise needing help from anyone, despite me being happy to help anyone who needs it. I don't view them any less for needing help, but me? Me needing help is a sign of my own incompetence. Which only fuels the self loathing even further.
It really is fascinating how the mind can be so messed up beyond reason, but also unfortunate as there's only one way to stop it.
Please do not despise yourself. U R brave posting your feelings here. It is not a sign of weakness to ask for help. Rather it is a sign of self-care. No man is an island. We R here on HU to support U. I’m here for U.
I don't know what to say but I prayed for you.
MiamiJacket84, many of us have had minds that are so messed up. But the mind can
be fixed through professional counseling. Medication and guidance can bring you back
to the right path of thinking.
I'd like to know what your only way is in stopping your mind. I hope it's not what
I think it is. We can't give up on ourselves ever. It took time for our mind to get
messed up and we must take time in getting ourselves back on track.
Pride and low self esteem usually doesn't come from within but from those around
us. We must never allow ourselves to believe what other's think. We all our empowered
with the necessary things to make changes in our lives.
We must start slow in rebuilding our confidence and self esteem. Little steps are wins.
One step at a time can and will take us to where we belong. I'm proud of you for sharing
your journey with us. Take our hand and let us walk the walk with you. You are safe 
xx
what beautiful advice
I hope miamijacket really listens to it
Thank you very much. This is how I found HU. It was hellacious for me during the pandemic. I reached out to find mental health resources. I live by myself and needed the support And in turn I try to be supportive
Hi miami jacket can i start by asking why you hate your self ! Lifes to short to feel this way are you living in the past why do you think your incomptent if you are being like this if need be are you being bullied by someone you sound like a amazing person who needs to examine how you feel and ASK for help all the best david
We are on the same boat. I like helping people but always find it difficult to seek help.
Hi MJ84.
U've hit the nail on the head there & self worth is low on our list of priorities.
But reading what U've written reminds of the words of a couple of the greatest poets to ever live.
What would U do if I sang outta tune ?
Would U stand up & walk out on me ?
Lend me ur ear & I'll sing U a song,
And I'll try not to sing outta key.
Oh I get by with a little help with my friends
Mm I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm gonna try with a little help from my friends.
So a suggestion start with family as they are U & ur blood too.
Lastly
I wish U love & light on ur journey
Me too, always i seek someone in my back to believe that i am not alone, there is someone in my back to hold me. Now a days, if i find any place not kind and favorable, i just quit. I feel no energy to fight.
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