Hi, I shared a story before about a toxic friendship I was in.
I can't help but spiral and think I was the one who was not a good friend. I keep getting looks from people who I used to be friends with like I did something so bad. It might be in my head, but there have been a few that are not nice. It just feeds into my spiral that I am a bad person. It makes me want to never leave the house. I keep replaying what happened. I seem to forget all of the bad things they put me through and only focus on how I ended the friendship. I am so deeply scared they are spreading false rumors about me. I try so hard to be a good person, I am so scared. I just want to be free of this person in my brain, but it is so hard. I keep telling myself to move on forget about it, and try not to care what people think about me. But physically can't.