anxiety

[SkyAl3]

today had been a really hard day. I’ve been crying all day. I’m scared that this anxiety I feel is not going to go away. I’m scared of tomorrow. When I close my eyes that’s when the pain goes away. I was using weed for my anxiety, I was smoking everyday all day for several months. It’s been 3 weeks since I stopped cold turkey. And since I was using weed to numb the pain now I feel all this anxiety all over the place. I’m scared to go outside, to think, to eat. I now this felling is temporary but it’s fells like it’s going to never go away. And when I do start to feel better I doubt myself and that anxiety start to come out and we’re back to square one. I feel this guilt, it’s my fault for felling like this, why was I smoking weed. I feel out of control like something bad is going to happen or like I can’t control my thoughts. I do Uber eats delivery and it’s a calming job but these last few days I’m scared to be out there alone. I’m scared of driving like something is going to happen. I’m scared that tomorrow I’m going to feel worse. Even as I’m typing this now I feel shame like you’re all going to judge me but I know ur not. This is a safe place. I’m just scared

[PerfectlyImperfect03]

Anxiety is terrifying. Blaming yourself for trying to numb the pain and fear isn't going to help. You got this. Small steps, one day at a time. Have you tried prescription meds to take the edge off?

[SkyAl3 in reply to PerfectlyImperfect03]

I take two meds but I haven’t took one due to financial stuff and that’s the one that helps the best

[Pinky_12]

Hi Sky,

I wanted to let you know your not alone, in this community you are heard, you are felt, we understand what your going through and no one here judges you. ino you probably do know that but sometimes anxiety is irrational and sometimes its hard to make yourself believe even the things you do know. So i just thought i would reassure you, bad days are hard asf, im having one rn too actually.

I understand what it feels like to be scared that tomorrow won’t change my feelings, that fear in itself used to have me reeling what helps me is letting the anxiety ride itself out, having no expectations of when its going to end, for me worrying about when it would end made it last longer, i feared how long it would last and in turn got more anxious. Its hard and it’s easier said than done but simply letting the anxiety do its thing makes it go away sooner, its very hard but try to stay present, do something thats not too stressful but still enough to distract you from it. I currently play figgerits or a little too the left to help.

Sometimes for me cuddling a pet or someone works, listening to music, writing down what im grateful for or my worries and when i don’t know what im anxious about just my feelings or the body sensations im going through or praying. Praying is a huge one for me actually. its comforting to me that i can trust in him. The bible says soo much about anxiety and worry, about casting your cares unto him.

Just take your time one day at a time, dont blame urself you’ve done nothing wrong. 🩷

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”

‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4‬:‭6‬-‭7‬ ‭

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pinky x

[SkyAl3 in reply to Pinky_12]

Thank you for this.

[CLB1125]

You are right, we won’t judge you because we go through it too! The what ifs never stop. I wish I had some kind of wise advice but I got nothin! Just wanted to let you know you’re not in this alone!