Got home

[Against_the_current]

I got home. Mom hurt me again. Me : im tired, i travelled so long. Her : im tired too, my co-worker is going to the States and i have to work with a newbie, my co-workers are always traveling. They have husbans and money. I was like "please, i don't like this" and she was like "you're a psychologist, you have to get used to it" and then "then I won't share with you, we had a nice weather and will have a nice weather again". So agressive since i got home. I fell asleep and wake up at 4am hiccuping and not knowing where i am. Psychologists don't consult their own family. And they consult people who are willing to listen or at least are sober.Everyone tells me to talk sence to her but that's impossible. I came here. What it turns out - that i have to better stress in a small place over what to eat or go to Sofia and live with my friend worrying if im letting him down or hurting up?

[GlowingDarkly]

I am sorry to hear that you’re not finding reprieve from the world at home, as your mother seems particularly difficult. Home needs to be a safe space for each of us. Especially as someone who is studying psychology or has a degree in psychology, people expect that magically the mysteries of the human mind are unlocked to you and therefore you are immune to pain. Which of course is untrue.

We all need a space that is ours and ours alone, be it a room, an apartment or even just time and space. We need to fill our lives with people who appreciate us for who we are and respect us in return. We must be kind to ourselves and remind ourselves that we deserve to be happy.

[SoporRose in reply to GlowingDarkly]

Well said.

[Against_the_current in reply to GlowingDarkly]

Exactly. I need a home. I feel homeless

[CLB1125]

Your mother sounds to be getting more aggressive with you. You are better off in your small accommodation deciding what to eat than deal with it. I don’t know who Sofia is but from what I read and understand your post, do what is best for you. Not because you are letting someone down. Im glad you come here to talk things out. We might not have answers for you, but we support you. My heart goes out to you.

[Against_the_current in reply to CLB1125]

It's the capital of my country where i got offered to live with someone but i think it's too much for me. I feel stuck. Three options for living and im still feeling homeless. I should be allowed to go home